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RachelTheSeeker

Rachel J. Maxwell / 29 / Maned Lioness / Western New York

"Suddenly, a summer breeze..."
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I Wanna Be Cute

I just want to be cute. I take every opportunity to avoid transition but in the end? I just wanna be cute. I can't refuse myself forever, and I'm thankful for those who like me and what I do. I hate how slow this is going, but I can't just give up. I have every right to be comfortable in my own ski…

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Tablet and Art Program?

So my own birthday is coming up fast, and will be here early this September. I'm hoping I can afford something I've been dying to get for a while now, and something that can help me give back to you, my fans and friends. I'm looking to improve my artwork, and I feel the best way I can do that right…

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Feh

Another filler entry to get rid of my livid one from last time. Surprisingly, I don't like being enraged, despite my habit of being PO'd on a regular basis.

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Game Dev Soul-Searching

For those unaware, I've been struggling with RPG Maker for a long, long time. And recently on Twitter, I've spammed my contacts' feeds with a wall of Tweets about my thoughts on the subject. It covers some inner demons of mine too, hence my thought to relay it here. Copy-and-pasted, here's what I'v…

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Inhuman Characters As A Gimmick: A Literary Babbling

Figured I'd replace the prior entry with something nicer. Something that matters to me as a person. In this journal entry, I'll be babbling a bit about my literary projects and how I wanna handle my inhuman main character. First off, here's a YouTube link of someone whose video inspired this chat:…

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I'm Not Trans

This is something that's been on my mind for a while, so I'm just going to come out and say it. I don't believe I'm trans-femme any longer. I don't know if I ever truly was. If by some chance I'm lying to myself and am transgender, which I doubt, I'm not going to transition. Part of this is the fac…

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A Return to Classic Form

I've been thinking on things for my fursona. I think I've been drastic to try and abruptly change Rachel into Raziya, and I'm not so sure any of it was necessary. I kind of miss her original design already, as well as how the character presented herself in my works. From my roleplaying since the sw…

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Chasing Safety, Achieving Monotomy

If I may? I've been thinking since the prior entry today, and while I don't feel I'm fully recovered yet, I would like to comment on an observation I've made about myself. As the title indicates, I feel like I've been trying to play it safe too much, which leads me to living a rather unfulfilling a…

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Clarification to Character Confusion

Hey again, folks. Hasn't been too long since my last entry, but felt the need to chat about something regarding my main character/fursona. I've been experimenting with different versions of her over time, and I've tossed around various names, backstories, concepts and powers for her to have. Some o…

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Let's Turn This Around...

Hey all. Felt the need for an update. As implied in the last entry, July wasn't a very good month for me. However, by the end of it, I've had a revelation of sorts -- many of the problems I face are my own fault, to varying degrees. I slept the days away when I could've tried to spend my time doing…

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Feeling As If I'm Disappearing

I'm not doing so well these past couple of days. Because of personal issues I've faced over the last few years, I've been very reclusive. Whether thinking I should put myself and my interactions to higher standards, or just plain not wanting to be around others due to a bad self-image, I've been tr…

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Self Reflections, Part 2: Answers

Gave the queries from last time some thought. While not as long-winded as last time, here's what I came up with about the points made... 1) I don't have a good answer about politics, as things seem to be getting worse and worse as time goes by. Regardless, I don't have the option to shun everyone I…

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Self Reflections: Fitting In, Gender, and Uniqueness

There's been a lot on my mind this evening. I'm sorry, but here's another blog entry where I discuss personal flaws and self-reflection. It's no surprise to me that I am very impressionable. I really am. Being on the Autism Spectrum probably has something to do with that. Trying to tackle the perso…

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So, How've I Been?

Hey folks. Just wanted to give a couple quick updates, because why not? Gotta have something positive to say, but also have a change on an up-and-rising character of mine; in the latter I level with you, the reader, a bit. ^^; So last night I experienced the grand finale of a Pathfinder RPG game I'…

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Interactive Annoucement!

Hey folks. I've given my Rachel project some thought, and with some advice under my belt and determination to keep on keeping on, I'm pleased to announce that I will begin work on a vore interactive starring Rachel! I'll begin typing up the rules of play, and will publish them sometime today. At th…

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So Yeah

I stand by my previous gender statements from a couple months back. I'm a guy. A femme-centric guy, but a dude nevertheless. Doesn't make me any less an ally to trans folk though. Beliefs can be found here: https://www.weasyl.com/journal/119533/gender-updates-real-talk

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Obligatory Blog Entry for Nov. 2017

Well, wanted to get rid of the previous entry from earlier. Hanging in there, somehow. Expect more art on the way. Been in a mood to draw my trans Funtime Foxy/Mangle, as well as maybe some fan art?

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Honestly...

...I'm uncertain about myself. I feel like I'm on a crossroad, and that people are trying to shove me down one side whether they realize it or not. I feel not associating as transgender would be easiest, but I don't know if I really want to do that. :x

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I'm a coward

I can't choose who I am. Even if I am really trans, I could never transition. I'd never succeed. It'd just ruin my life. I'm hopeless to understand myself on my own.

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Apartment Fund Commissions

Whew. It's been a long ride, but I'm finally getting into an apartment at long last. Got the call from earlier today stating that I can move in as early as tomorrow, and got many of the essentials I need tonight. For now, I can't help but feel this first month's going to be tight as can be, so... I…

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Who Should I Draw?

So it's been a while since I've really drawn certain of my cast, aside from Rachel and one-off characters. So I want to ask y'all: who should I draw more of? You may leave a comment below, or otherwise you might vote on this Strawpoll below (and please do so). http://www.strawpoll.me/11647797

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Life's Going On

It's been a while since my last journal entry. Slowly yet surely, I'm trying to pick the pieces back up. I've got, at the least, good news: there's finally an opening at the apartment complex I've looked at, and I should be able to move in this November. I worry about being able to stay afloat fina…

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Falling Apart

It's been months since my last blog. I don't have any good news, other than the fact I've finally been able to hang out with some IRL friends I've been missing yesterday. It's been 10 months since I had to move to my aunt's house. The apartment complex I'd applied to move to is jerking me around. I…

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Maybe Other Kinks...?

It's been some time, and I've calmed down a bit. In all honesty, maybe I'm just burnt out from vore right now, among other personal problems? In such a case, I'm tempted to simply draw other kinks of mine. Either way, I will be uploading my favorite pictures from my dA page, as well as provide new…

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Done With Smut. Again.

I'm sure at this rate that it'll seem BS for me to post, seeing as I'd said this multiple times before. I'm done with working on smut. My art sucks. I suck in general, but that's another story. Point is, I'm not wasting what little talents I have on crap to get peoples' rocks off. Nor do I ever int…

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Building Up Determination

It's been a while, and I feel I need to make another update. Things wound up getting worse before they got better, and I feel they've only really gotten better sometime this week. I haven't been pushing myself at all for a long while, and it's taken its toll on me. I've had a myriad of reasons for…

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Maybe I Should Stay Gone

I've been in a very dark place these last few days. I'd been sleeping all day, and crying myself back to sleep at night. Looking back at my older works, and even my newer ones, I know that I've got people who like my stuff. I might even have people who like me, in general. This isn't the first time…

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I'm Retiring From Vore Art

I don't have any easy way of saying this. I've wanted to quit the vore community for so long, so many times. This might just blow over, or this might be the time I truly call it quits. Either way, I'm pretty upset. Over the last eight years, I've been drawing vore here and there. Sometimes writing…

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Opening Commissions

Hey, all. In my quest to mature and become an adult, I'm doing what I can to open up in positive ways. I know I hadn't gotten much interest in them, but I'd be willing to accept commissions for those who might want 'em. Cheap, too. Check out my information here: https://aryion.com/g4/userpage.commi…

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Putting My Heart Into It

I guess, I want to post another blog entry. It's been about a month now. I haven't been in the greatest of moods the last couple of days. Been sleeping all day, and accomplishing nothing. Taking a walk to gather my thoughts and calm down, at the reluctantly-accepted request of a family member, some…

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Been Forever Again

A lot's been happening in my life, needless to say, as it's been two years. I can't say too much of what's been going on till recently, as it's been a lot of the same old, same old. However, stuff has been happening as of late in the last few months. One of the first things I want to say is that I'…

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I return

Yeah... had problems, and forgot about this site, to be honest. Either way, I have returned, and will try to upload more stuff from my FA and Eka's accounts.

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I hate who I am so fucking much...

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A New Project of Mine

With my next step in getting my own place two days away, and a lack of being scheduled for work except for Thursday this week (I thought that'd end when I was fired from BK? ._.), I have a sense of how to further feel like I'm doing something with my life. I think... sometime last year (can't remem…