This is something that's been on my mind for a while, so I'm just going to come out and say it. I don't believe I'm trans-femme any longer. I don't know if I ever truly was. If by some chance I'm lying to myself and am transgender, which I doubt, I'm not going to transition. Part of this is the fact that I'm starting to "red-pill" out of extremist SJW beliefs as well, but that's another story.

My beliefs that I was trans came from a time of self-doubt and self-loathing. More and more I'm learning to accept myself as who I am and am developing self-respect, and as such the desire to be someone else by any means necessary is fading over time. As time went on and my self-worth was being cultivated, I realized that I don't actually have legitimate dysphoria. Any instance of dysphoria can be summed up as either a symptom of self-loathing, or a delusion I told myself for the sake of being around certain individuals who were trans. Leaving Twitter behind once again, I've felt a need to put on the mask of considering myself female because I felt ashamed to admit that I no longer believed myself as such.

Honestly? Men can shave their facial hair if they want, and don't need to uphold the toxic forms of masculinity and other tropes that I'd long believed made me different from other guys I knew in life. I wasn't different among the lads I knew in school because I was a woman with a bad chromosome; I was different because I was sensitive, artistic and have Asperger's.

I... just feel like a complete idiot right now. Every ounce of conviction I've ever had in my life has been an extremist lie I've told myself. It doesn't help I'm as malleable as clay in others' hands, either. I'm sorry if I've let anyone down for upholding such dishonesty.