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Chasing Safety, Achieving Monotomy by RachelTheSeeker
If I may? I've been thinking since the prior entry today, and while I don't feel I'm fully recovered yet, I would like to comment on an observation I've made about myself. As the title indicates, I feel like I've been trying to play it safe too much, which leads me to living a rather unfulfilling and mundane life.
I've been trying to avoid failure with RPG Maker, so I've been too scared to chase my own ideas and have been trying to rip off other games (commercial, indie and otherwise). I've been scared to pursue transition for a sake of failing as a passing woman, so I've been holding it off on it as much as possible. I've been scared to try and understand things from a differing perspective in fear of losing friends, so I've been letting myself get force-fed the more extreme sides of being liberal.
Sensing a pattern here? My fear of failure has been dooming me to an unfulfilling life, as it's wont to do. This isn't the first time I've been letting myself down because of that lingering dread. I don't know how to fix things other than just taking a risk for once in a long time.
Chasing Safety, Achieving Monotomy
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It's understandable. I've been debating for like six months now, whether to continue uploading art here--I'm not saying I'm going to stop drawing..............but it's more or less, my art has a couple devotees and gets very little attention beyond that unless I do something absolutely epic (like my Inktober piece). To me, it's..............more or less not worth my time to sit and scan a bunch of things that nobody but me and 2-3 people care about. shrug
I'll decide by January what I want to do--but it won't stop me from being active here--I'll still be a very active watcher and post an occasional journal. And I'll still draw, just probably not share much. :)