I'm not doing so well these past couple of days. Because of personal issues I've faced over the last few years, I've been very reclusive. Whether thinking I should put myself and my interactions to higher standards, or just plain not wanting to be around others due to a bad self-image, I've been trying to run away. And what's more, these days I feel like I've succeeded.

These days, I've learned that being alone isn't what I needed after all. I've made a terrible mistake. I'm so alone, but by now, I don't know what to do. I live for the weekends now, where I am able to hang out with old friends elsewhere in WNY the whole time, who I had gotten back together with months prior after I ran into one on Twitter and learned that the group didn't hate me after all. Friends who acknowledge and support my gender identity, and to whom we share many common interests.

As for my online prominence, I've surely begun to fade away. I know that people old and new are fans of my artwork on these sorts of sites, and I also know I've shunned a lot of people too. I cannot bring myself to do smut roleplaying any longer, and I have a mostly-unspoken personal policy of not getting involved with people who are a little too touchy-feely about me or my characters.

I don't know what I'm trying to convey with this entry. Mostly a feeling of loneliness, I suppose.