╬ Info About Myself ╬

I'm tired.

I guess I'm back from my hiatus. Went through a lot of stuff in the past few months, good and bad, but I made a lot of progress. Here's my too-long-winded year in review, but feel free to skip over it.

2015 was real bad to me, real real bad. Medical crisis after medical crisis. The fallout from it was the defining moment for 2016 though. From the pain and anger and desperation and sickness, I acted like a real shit to a lot of people, and some people acted like a real shit back to me. Some stayed, but some relationships couldn’t withstand the pressure on their already cracked foundation.

I never thought I would go through what was essentially a divorce at the age of 27. I never thought I would go through one, period. My entire life was planned around my partner, my whole future. Literally everything I had built came crashing down around me; I felt like I was caught in some decrepit forest during the windstorm of a century. The thing about that, though, the thing about forests and windstorms… When all the dead trees are finally knocked down and aren’t obscuring your sight, you can finally see how nice the night sky is. You can see what you’ve been missing.

I didn’t make it out unscathed, though. I definitely got wounded, pretty damn bad. But I bandaged myself up. I let myself heal, and grow. I’m finding myself again, I’m becoming more independent, I’m once again becoming my own person.

It’s going to take me a long time to fully recover from the losses I experienced in 2016, but I think I’m on the right path. I got a new car, my driver’s license, I’m on the road to start HRT, my self confidence is slowly rising, and I know I have friends that will always back me up, no matter how deep of a hole I’ve dug myself into. I think that’s a decent start for the new year, a good launching point. I hope all of you have found yourself a good launching point too.

I do actually have a new year's resolution for once; ideally I would like to get out with my camera once a week or more, but I'm going to REQUIRE myself to get out and take shots of -something- at least once a month. I've got to get myself back to doing the things I enjoy, even if I'm just going through the motions and not feeling anything for a while still.

But yeah. I'm back I guess. That was.. a lot of text. ¯_(ツ)_/¯