I'm Bartan, though I tend to use the Username of Dexdor on other sites. I'm just an open minded hermit that fell through the cracks of society. I spend my days watching the world, rather than be part of it. Other than a Chinese phone book worth of wisdom, enough OC's to sink a ship, and a 14 year story I'm too lazy to write, I don't have too much to offer. But if I have something to say, I mean it with respect. I admit, I can get a bit cynical and pessimistic.
That being said, I'm more of a writer than an artist by traditional means. Mostly due to a bad reaction to a needle in my primary arm, I can't draw very well anymore. But I've felt like my words can paint a picture almost as I envisioned it, better than what my physical being could pull off. Regardless, feel free to check them out. I usually write fantasy stories about dragons and other random creatures that are often not heard of. Though they are usually clean, I will do more mature things from time to time, and give a heads up in the artist's comments if there is one.
I'll also put a bit of a warning here as well. Alot of my inspirations come from music, and alot of that music tends to be on the more Harsh vocal side. Again, I'll place a warning if one is used if you do not enjoy that type of music. Everybody has their tastes, but there's a reason why I suggest a music title or track within these stories. Usually not from lyrics, but the tone of the music itself. My suggestion is to look for it on youtube, let it play in the background, and just try to let it immerse you into the story. Some people tend to have trouble with that, but if you can get it... If you can see it the way I see it, you'll find yourself enjoying the story alot more.
Speaking of those stories, my main library is on FA. It's my most checked site, and... "Arguably" my most... Popular? With no real luck on SoFurry when it came to stories, I'm giving Weasyl a try. If someone here enjoys my work, then it'll be worth it.
You were likely directed to this journal by me to save me from needing to repeat myself towards every person I ever meet, likely after asking about some sort of social interaction. Be it adding me to discord, or some type of social media, etc. This isn't an automatic message to say "No" by any means, this is just me explaining a few things while saying "Sure."
So! You know how some people are Introverts; meaning that they lose energy with social interaction and such? I have a condition that is an extreme version of that. My energy rapidly drains when I'm seeing someone in person, talking to them over the phone/chat, or even chatting with them via text. To explain how this happened is a long story, and I will not proceed to bore you with the details.
However, if you're given this link, I just want you to understand that when I give you something like my Discord address, do keep in mind that I only have so much energy. The more you drain it, the less I will have for other people, for work like my writings, to even just existing. I have been pushed into a near coma because of this before. It is a real issue that I've, my doctors, my counselors, or my psychiatrist have yet to find a name for, and it has gotten to the point where I can no longer work. Meaning, I'm currently living off of disability due to this.
This also means that travel is absolutely out of the question as well. Visiting people, or even having people visit Me is not healthy. Because after a couple of hours, my batteries are completely drained and I will likely have to spend the next few days attempting to rest it off. And full on relationships are sadly out of the question. If I don't talk for several days, sometimes even months (literal Months), it has nothing to do with you. I don't get mad/angry with people very often, and if there is really something wrong, I will talk to you about it (civilly as well, like a mature adult would).
So, like with anything else, use me responsibly (that didn't come out right...) Because, as you probably know, you're not the only one who wants to talk/hang out/etc with me. There will be times when I say things like "Sorry, I'm just too tired to talk/play/stroke you off." And these are not because I'm lazy or that I do not want to see you, it's because of this damn condition that is slowly getting worse.
Thank you for understanding. If you really want that "Origin Story" about this, feel free to ask.
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Joined 23 May 2016