Tumblrs: - Art and Reblog Tumblr - Hooping and dance Tumblr - Hiking and travel Tumblr - Crochet and Knitting Tumblr - Photography of Botany/Mycology Tumblr

My ever shifting interests has brought me full circle back into the fandom fray. I recently decided to take my life in a new direction professionally, and take a break from doing my PhD and go to work in the private sector. My longterm goal is to one day have a research firm where we study microbial ecology and try to find ways to make microbes work for us. For now I'm starting out working in the bio-tech industry down in Phoenix and we'll see where things go from there.

I love getting good critique on my art, so feel free to provide advice on how I can improve. I'm trying to get out of the artistic tunnel vision mode of only drawing furries in blank space and thus I'm challenging myself to construct scenes with more lighting and perspective, and with backgrounds.

Outside of visual art, I really enjoy performance art. My main dance form is Hooping, and I've been hulahoop dancing for about 4 years now. I've been to quite a few festivals and done performances at lots of different venues. While hooping is my most practiced dance form, I also really enjoy belly dancing and just shaking my ass recklessly, and I sincerely enjoy inspiring other people to do the same.

Also when time can be found I really enjoy playing table top games with my husband. The main two games I play are Pathfinder and Shadowrun. Quite a bit of my art is inspired from gaming. Additionally my husband and I are LARPing again here in SoCal at a post apocalyptic LARP called Dystopia Rising.

If you want to follow me socially check me out on Twitter:



Latest Journal

That which does not serve you

on 14 September 2017 at 20:26:38 MDT

Someone I had been friends with for a long time told me the reason she blocked me on FB was because we were fundamentally incompatible and that since she moved to my area of the country, she did not want to pursue any sort of friendship with me.

I was initially very upset. Things in my life have been not been going as well as I would have liked, and I've had to leave my job at the lab for reasons I can't discuss on here. I am starting my own consulting company however, and am currently working on getting clients. Starting my own business is a huge leap for me, and I'm having to learn about about business interactions, taxes, contracts, NDA, TOS and other sorts of legal rigamarole I didn't think I would ever have to deal with if I stayed the whole scientist route. I had hoped moving to Oregon, I would be able to work for a company that I could do scientific research and help educate our customers. I feel passionate about the industry I am in, and I know that I am capable of doing the kind of work I have dreamed about doing since I was an undergrad, if I can just find a company willing to give me the chance, treat me with respect, and value my input. As of now, that only company seems to be one I start myself, so I begin the whole process of starting my own LLC and finding clients.

The emotional work of having to deal with leaving one job, and starting my own business takes a tremendous toll on me, so when I found out this person I had looked forward to hanging out with, and hadn't seen in almost a decade in person, someone I have a long history with and who I have art from and made art for since we were both in our early twenties had suddenly decided we were "fundamentally incompatible" it hurt me a lot.

It opened up old wounds from other furry artist friends I've had to remove from my life because our relationship was toxic. Friendships that I mourned losing more than even relationships; events that I still struggle with today. For someone to just cast me aside without much explanation, without even really meeting up with me in person before making that decision was extremely triggering and upsetting.

But I remember what someone once told me or maybe I read it somewhere "Let go that which does not serve you" . So it must no longer serve her to have me as a friend, or customer, or fan. It does not serve her, and for whatever reason she has decided that is, I can't really do anything but be who I am and let her be who she is. And just as my offer of friendship no longer serves her, I do not need to serve her and remove my support. This was hard to do, as she has been in my life for over a decade and we have a lot of connections across a lot of website and mutual friends. And I won't say it didn't hurt to remove her from them, but I must let it all go because it does not serve me to be angry at someone who I use to know.

The only thing I can really do at this point is keep striving to be my authentic self and find my way in this world. I am looking into returning to school to finish my PhD. I still am in a relationship with two really great guys who love me and support me. I have my practice in witchcraft and nature based faith. And I still have a lot of friends that do value, support and love me. I can't make people like me, but I can be true to myself, kind to others, have integrity with my word and do the best I can do with the circumstances I have.

I took a lot of the social media I had on my phone off so I can go through a detox period where I try to remember how to focus on tasks and not crave the adulation and electronic attention from people constantly. I think it will be healthy for me to re teach myself focus, especially in this next very formative period of my life.

I plan to continue to work on art, and probably periodically share it on here if it is of furry nature. But otherwise I'll likely only be here to support :iconTriadFox: in his comic and work on building our incense company brand. I wish all of you out there reading this well. Blessed be.

View This Journal and 0 Comments


Joined 27 October 2012

Favorites Given
Favorites Received