Where people don't like you, that you are alone in a community? That you do not really fit in and the like? I've been feeling that way for sometime now. Frankly it's a bit irritating yet I do not know what to do about it. I just wonder to myself "Why can't I seem to feel like I'm a respected member of the community" or "Do people actually truthfully like me?" And other such similar things I usually just bury such thoughts in my head and suppress them, but it's really been unhealthy doing so. At the same time I don't really know what words to put down here. I don't even know why I'm writing this journal to be truthful. It's just so frustrating and disheartening when it seems like no one really cares about you or what you do. I know that is not true and just my own mind telling me this, yet I can't help but just...think it y'know?

I really shouldn't be bothered to make journals like this...I barely make any to begin with and I wouldn't want to plague it with depressing stuff.