I will draw on my envelopes to pen-pals, so the workers at my post office are always happy to see my stuff going out! Though what other postal workers think, I have no idea! XD

Actually a limited color palette for labels could be pretty cool! I laminate my larger package labels, since I just have an inkjet (if the label gets wet, it’s unreadable! XD)—usually with a piece of packing tape over the label as “laminate”. Or even if you just make yourself stickers, with your artwork……which I also decorate envelopes with! :)

Oh I didn't even notice the glasses don't have the sides over the ears. I actually struggled with drawing that in the past.
I guess that's my main problem is that too many animal ears are too high to put on human face/headwear.
But when I look at this... I don't even notice it, so I may just take that in mind if I ever do draw.

Anyway, I know it might not mean much, but I feel you, if that helps to hear. I deal with a lot of anxiety, and once I get over one thing, something new pops up. Then I always have those prolonged things I can't really get past-- always noise in the background. It can get really hard, and without going into some huge explanation thing you might already think here, how you feel mentally and emotionally really does effect how you feel in general.

I spend all my online time in ways you just said (Youtube) while I do other work on the computer. I don't know how you feel about it-- maybe it's too early to tell, but I find it's something that's better for me, mainly because I'm just bad managing free-time. I can't say much on your situation, but know you are not alone on that. I only ever worked 'odd jobs' and I think I'm expected to have something to put on a resume... and it's really hard because throughout my life I've never known what I wanted to do. I think a lot of people can relate to this, but I thought for years I was just going to be one thing, only to realize I didn't want to/couldn't do it, and I felt extremely lost. Really, I still feel lost.

But the biggest thing I want to mention is that we all have ideas of where we should be in life (oftentimes influenced from those around us, be it family/peers/the general culture of your country/city), but they don't mean anything about worth or one's efforts. I know recognizing that doesn't make money appear in accounts, but it changes how I feel about the situation- and sometimes, I think that's all you really can do, sadly. I don't think there is a script for how life plays out- which is both a good and bad thing. There is no tangible 'way to be', but there's also no clear answers on where to go next. Expecting a 'lucky day' where it all changes isn't very useful, but I do find that answers-- a path -- if you can imagine, come in sudden ways... or just develop naturally over time. Either way, I truly do hope you can find something.

Oh ... slightly related, but I figure I'll tell you now: I meant to reach out to you by email as 'pen pals' at some point, but I've actually been having trouble with my main email as of late. I need to make a new one, but that's a bit to set up. Don't worry about it though, you're busy too, I'd just like to let you know I haven't forgotten and hopefully I get that working before the end of the year (even if that day is December 31st).

I guess it'd be easier than just putting it in a huge comment? I write what I can, I guess this works too, I don't mind... I hope you don't either, sorry if so.