I've been thinking a lot, I haven't been active nor posted anything in years.
A lot of things went down on here and on other websites that I'm very upset about.
I know it's in the past, but I think I really should address these things, because they never were.

Firstly, I want to address the issues I had on Fetlife. I was in relationships with a few people. The first I hooked up with I thought would've went great, but I ended up being easily manipulated and mistreated and eventually I had to call it quits. I put up with it as long as a did because I really wanted it to work. I wanted to give that person the benefit of the doubt, but unfortunately it wasn't to be.

The second person was such a kind and loving being. This person also shared many interests with me. I knew we had something going great. However, some abuse and really unfortunate events began to occur, affected my emotional and mental health. I also came to the conclusion that I was not getting what I came to fetlife for. I was feeling unfulfilled. While I did greatly admire my partner, I knew that person couldn't give me what I desired. Mostly due to my mental health being affected, I just stopped messaging people for a while, and lied and said everything was okay from when it was addressed. I had noticed that my first partner all of a sudden stopped messaging me, out of curiosity and changed my profile to how it was before I was with my second partner, and here he was messaging me again like nothing happened. I wasn't sure what I wanted to do with myself anymore, nothing made sense anymore.
Due to so much confusion, sadness, regret and disappointment erupting from inside me, I simply closed my account on fetlife without saying a word to anyone.

What I deeply regret is not being honest with the second partner about what was going on with me and that I didn't want to do what we were doing anymore. She probably despises me now, and I wouldn't blame her. She was such a sweet woman, and she didn't deserve that. I hate what I did to her. I should have just told her the truth. I am terribly sorry for what I did.

Now, I'm going to address the drama I had with a fellow fur that I knew in real life. We went to school together. I actually decided to talk to him since I found out he was a furry, things were awesome and I loved hanging out with him. However, I started to act stupid. I did some very irrational things and I ended up unintentionally offending up on several occasions. I hate that I did those things to him, especially since he opened up to me about certain things people don't usually share. Subsequently, we grew apart. Again, I don't blame him. I want to apologize to him as well for all of those things.

My health should never affect how I treat people. I know it sounds like I'm using my mental health as an excuse. That's not the case, my state of mind was no excuse for how I treated people. I had choices, and I didn't make the right ones.

I also want to apologize to all the people on here I've offended and disappointed.

Why am I now talking about these things after all of these years? I didn't want to bring it up, I just wanted to be gone. Up to now, it still was bothering me, and I couldn't keep it in anymore. It needs to be said.

So, where do I go from here?
I had thoughts on returning, but if I am, it will be elsewhere. I don't have plans on posting on this account anymore. I plan on eventually deleting this account. Also, if I come back, I'll no longer be going under the name "Hoffis". It was great while it lasted, but it's time for something new. I'm not sure what it might be though. Also, I won't be linking my new account on here. I think It'll be the best. I might reupload some of my pictures there as well. Since my fursona hasn't changed, you might recognize me on another account.

We'll see.....

I wish you all the best and I thank you all for everything.