"Gotta cut away, clear away
Snip away and sever this
Umbilical residue that's
Keeping me from killing you

And from pulling you down with me in here
I can almost hear you scream

Give me
One more medicated peaceful moment"
~ "Orestes" by A Perfect Circle

First off - YAY! I got my newer scanner working!! Can y'all tell??? Like. Shit. I may have to rescan some things!

This song is definitely Dimitri and SilverWing's love song. I've been feeling pretty down due to a culmination of circumstances, including chronic pain and some big life changes that may be happening (so I'm anxious about that), and a past demon that I thought was gone that's back to haunt me.

And when I feel that way I want to retreat. I wish I could just feel nothing - no pain, no anxiety, no depression, no emotion in general. Drugs are a great escape for that. And Dimitri's always ready and waiting patiently for me with eager hands. So yeah, when I get this way I do still think about using drugs. Would I? As of now I can tell you I wouldn't. I hope I can remain that strong.

This picture sucks massive balls. I drew, inked and colored in about 2 hours just to vent. I was totally tired and I swear half asleep part of the time. Like wtf with his arm being huge and his legs where are they and why are they so small and just pffft.... but I do kinda like how SW came out.

So here have some vent art. Not like I really exist here anymore anyway.

Dimitri, SW + Art © JGF 2015