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I think I have anxiety/ panic attacks by PrincessofAsgard29
I'm not trying to assume anything, but I just have a very good feeling that I do have something relatable to anxiety/having panic attacks. Because when something bad happens in my household, I get super sensitive about something when my parents are trying to start a conversation with me. ( I sometimes admit this is the bad) But the thing is, their conversations are not technically A LEGIT CONVERSATION. They talk to me about my volunteer hours, me registering for part two of my semester in college.. all of these conversations starters, are very overwhelming for me sometimes. And honestly, this is why I stay up in my room half of the time being. (unless I invite my friend to hang out with ) I feel PRESSURED when it comes my parents conversations. Sometimes my parents don't know it, but they insult me a lot saying how I shouldn't be as exhausted as them when I come home from work, and I need to be realistic about things. I'm sorry I have a very strong imagination sometimes??
But that's not the point. I only start to have anxiety when i'm around my family. Especially my parents. I told my mom I think I have some form of anxiety or panic issues. She just rolled her eyes and sounded very exasperated when I told her that. Cause when my parents have a rough tone in their voices, I start to panic and then I start to cry. I frigen HATE IT. I'm such a sensitive human being that I hate it. It sucks to have it. Sometimes I don't even have to think about it and i just cry. (Depending on how sensitively I treat the situation I'm in ) my mom just says I need to have "more backbone" or "I need to get thicker skin" But not only that I have these big outbursts when I'm angry. I'm still crying, but I crack and I just shout. I want to know what this is. I want to take medication at least to control my sensitivity/ moods. I don't think there is something for what I have though. :( there's so much pressure I can take, but if not I just- break down. Being super sensitive sucks. I'm not saying my parents are abusive. NO! But sometimes they do say things that I can be very sensitive towards. And when you're a super sensitive being like me, it's hard to control that. Any advice/ help/ suggestions?
I think I have anxiety/ panic attacks
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Thank you for the hugs. ^^
I mean I tried talking to a therapist one time myself- It didn't quite help. And I kinda just got annoyed at having to go every week for one day. It made me felt like I had to go somewhere I didn't enjoy being. So that ended quickly lol. And she was kinda- rough no offense my old therapist. And I dunno, I don't want to be all blunt saying "hey you're causing me to have these panic/anxiety attacks. Can you stop?" Usually I just have to go up in my room, and calm myself down. One of my friends suggest to listen to music and out tune everything. And that kinda worked. I felt calm afterwards. I also write fanfics/ stories so maybe try doing that will help me calm down too.
I just agree when they give me annoying lectures and such. xD so I just go "mmmn-hm ya, yep" But then they go "are you even listening or paying attention?" It's the little things they say that get to me too. Like my dad thinks I have a poor sense of listening to directions and if I fail at listening for directions, I just get frustrated and panic and break down sometimes. It's also the kind of tone they use that just gets me distraught and upset. Man I'm such a sensitive soul. sighs
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Have you ever thought about just going to the doctor yourself or seeing a therapist yourself? You dont need your parents' permission to do that.
I would also directly confront your parents about how they make you feel. Not in the moment, just when they're not expecting it. Like, your mom is just folding clothes and you go "hey, you almost cause me to have a panic attack when you talk to me about stressful things. dont do that"
Or you can just say "fine" to everything they ask about you. You're under no obligation to talk to them about anything. I'd blow them off and do your own thing without them.