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i'll be 25 soon... warning: complaining by 22mg
its gonna be my birthday soon, i can't believe i'll be 25.
everything's been really insane this year. i haven't had much time to draw or anything because of how bad things have been.
i don't really want to go into logistics but i've been couch surfing/homeless for about 6 months and i'm still not sure when that'll be over. everything in my life has kind of fallen apart and my birthday finally coming around just reminds me how long i've been in stasis, stuck between two places.
i moved around a lot and luckily i have some really amazing friends who helped me find places to stay. i couldn't ask for a better support group. however, i've been too scared to really talk about what's been going on and i still am uncomfortable disclosing anything specific. i'm just really stressed out. i have never had a birthday away from my friends and family in arizona, but now i'm in illinois and alone and everything is daunting and overwhelming. i don't really know what to do with myself and all i really want to do is have a dog and draw comics again. i can't go to school, my student loans are coming due because ive been homeless and out of school for so long. i have to make payments on one of my loans right away and i don't even have a steady job. trying to draw on top of that is terrifying and all i want to do is go to sleep until its all over and stuff can start to be good again.
i've been able to draw some small things, nothing really worth uploading, but i'm thinking of releasing a small sketch zine soon to help pay my loans and have money to stop couch surfing.
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huuugs
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I've been in the same position as you for about a year and a half now. It's really fucking hard, even with friends who let you take their couch. Good luck :/
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yeah it is. i dont want to complain but hhhh. fuck.
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Many times you can get your student loans deferred if you don't have a job. When I've done it (several times, actuallly x.x) they don't even really ask many questions so it's not a tedious procedure.
Good luck, I hope you can find some stability soon! It must be very mentally wearing. x.x But at 25, you are still young, you will recover from this and it'll get better! Hang in there. :)
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the thing is, my college cancelled my student loans for this semester, so i technically owe the college directly, rather than a federal loan program :/ they're withholding my transcripts until i pay them off
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I'm sorry to hear this, dear. I know you work really hard to make your ends meet, it can be frustrating to work so hard and still see things that have to be done on top of all that. You're such a strong person, so I know you'll get through it! <3
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thank you so much for your support dude ;; its been too long since we've talked!!
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If you put that zine out I'll try to get a copy! :O
Very good luck to you! I hope you can find some ways to make things better for yourself soon.
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It seems like bad things only happen to people who don't deserve them and I hate that. If I had a lot of money you would be one of the first people I would throw a ton of it at just because you're so strong as a person and yet life keeps throwing shit at you and you deserve to have so much more... at least a solid ground to get your feet on.
But I don't have enough money to get my own feet on the ground either so ):
I've been thinking about you though, and I hope that soon you can find something to grab onto so you can get your loans paid off and at least get new a start in life.On another note, all the people who love your art will wait for you to get back on your feet, so don't let that be a burden. <3 take your time with personal art. If you can't draw you just can't and if people aren't understanding about that then they're a bunch of buttfaced jerks and I'll punch them.
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luckily people have been pretty understanding but i personally feel awful for taking so long with things. i just can't really motivate myself to focus on art when everything around me is going so crazy. i hope things look up for you financially soon because you dont deserve to struggle!
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I've been worried since I first saw that you were homeless and couch surfing :[ a lack of stability sucks, I hope things will eventually settle down and you'll have a set place you can call home for a longer period of time
best of luck!
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ahh... thank you so much. i hope it ends soon and i can have somewhere to stay.
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Hugs for precious dog buddy!