Depression.
It's like a parasite that lives within you, latches onto your life-lines and nurses on your joys until all that manages to reach your brain is a small trickle of what you're used to. Just barely enough to keep you eating, bathing, and sleeping.
Mine has been particularly glutinous as of late and I've been reduced to just functioning.
I know from experience that with time it will leave me alone.
It'll drain it's fill- and once it's finally bloated on my elations, my arterial-like streams of joy that allow me to see the world in happier perceptions will gasp and start to breathe again.
Until then, I just ask you guys humbly for your wonderful patience, for it seems my ability to draw is directly tied to it. :(
I send my love and wish you all the best <3.
Sincerely,
Nire
Despite what it is, your description of it is so accurate. Keep your chin up! *hugs if you want 'em* <3
I know those feelings all too well. If you ever need to talk, you know where to find me.
That being said, holy shit, you should be a writer. That was....well for lack of a better word, beautiful.
This to me is probably the most accurate description of depression. :c hugs Take all the time you need and I hope you feel better soon, Nire beans. <333
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Atarashi
i know this feeling well :c if you ever need to talk, don't be afraid to message me. i know talking doesn't really help most of the time, but sometimes it's nice just to be able to vent it out. don't have to of course, but i'm here if you need C: otherwise try to keep your chin up <3 <3 <3