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The disappearance of Kludge Lizarda by Kludge

Hopefully the title is not concerning, it’s just a Hatsune Miku reference…

I've been busy
Well, it’s certainly been a time this latter half the year. Disappeared more than usual and more than expected.

Lots of ups and downs all the time, various stressors, new outlooks on life. Volunteered at food banks for a bit, climbed at a bouldering facility a few times each month. Car broke down 2 weeks ago (still broken). Went back to school as well: I was only planning on taking two courses at university so I could have time for art and job-searching, but I found myself joining a theatre class on a whim and discovered an intense love for scenic carpentry, so that was what took up most of my time, and has certainly altered the course of my life (or rather… actually gave me a direction to point my life in for once).

Not quitting art, ever
Shifting away from being online though, as I have a bunch of problems with being online now (scams, spam, AI art, mean people, etc.), so I’ve more or less cut out social media—which I guess is just Twitter, I don’t really count Tumblr since I pretty much just post art and run, as I have for years. Also still not really using Discord, I have an account now but never found the time for servers or messaging people or anything.

So other than Moderneopets and Goatlings (I use the sites’ currencies to get art from people nowadays), it’s art sites only for me. FurAffinity, Weasyl, Patreon, and Sheezy when it gets revived again. My website will be redone someday when I figure out what I want to do with it, but I hope to do some more experimentation on there. I’ve no plans in store yet, other than having fun with it, whatever it will be.

No commissions for a while (unless it gets bad, uhh)
With that said, I suppose I should bring up the topic of commissions. I don’t know if there are still any out there who remember me and would have wanted something from me any time soon, but I don’t know when I’ll be able to do art commissions in the near future anyway. The closest thing you’d be able to get would be subscribing to my Patreon for a few months and letting some points rack up and redeeming them, but the biggest thing you’d be able to get would be a simple animated icon.

I’ve got some leads on jobs thanks to the theatre stuff as well as the public library, but as of now, I’m still using savings and grant money to cover rent and it’s a bit scary, so if I do end up opening commissions later down the road, it’ll definitely mean I’m in a danger zone on finances. Hopefully it doesn’t reach that point, but if it’s not this, then I might end up taking commissions for car repairs at least—still in the process of figuring out what’s wrong with it, holidays are making everything complicated with that right now so yeah.

Personal projects and sponsorships
I really want to work on personal projects. I plan on putting up some sponsored projects up for anyone who would wish to support my artistic endeavors, but considering all you’d really be getting is a shoutout, I’m not really counting on it taking off since most people would usually want something in return for payment (and I’m not saying that’s necessarily a bad thing). But I’ll post up info on that in the coming weeks just in case that interests anyone. I already did my sponsored screentone traditional art project, so I know it’s possible.

The personal art will be made whether I get sponsored or not. It’s really just a way for people to support me if they like what I do and have the funds to do so. It’ll range from normal drawings to animations, you’ll see.

Just kind of leaving… in a way.
I know being online is the thing to do, everyone is online for anything and everything because it’s all at our fingertips, but I’m just not enjoying it anymore. Not shaming anyone who is online and having fun of course, but, I’m just not having as much fun anymore. The only online joys I get are the two aforementioned pet sites and YouTube, and of course here when I get the opportunity to check the site, but yeah I don’t know. Hate to have an old man yelling at cloud moment but it just kinda sucks online and I want to leave. But I won’t, of course. There are still joys to be had, and this is the only place that feels the most comfortable to share my art and look at others’ stuff. I just kinda wanna live offline the most I can, and just pop in every now and then to show what I’ve made and see what you’ve made too. It’s an odd mindset to explain in words, but hopefully this makes sense in a way.

Here’s a rough art timeline for 2024:

January-February:

  • Work on AMV 1

March:

  • Open art trades for animated June icons
  • Work on AMV 1

April-May:

  • Make the icons
  • Finish AMV 1

June-July:

  • Sponsored projects / Personal drawings

August-November

  • Work on AMV 2
  • Start building an animated Telegram YCH sticker set (1 finished sticker each month)

December:

  • Finish AMV 2

Subject to change, obviously. But these are some goals for myself with generous estimations of how things would go. Hopefully my new AMVs do not take me half a year, but I don’t want to stress myself out with hard deadlines while I am tackling another school semester and more job hunting. But I’m just putting this up here for myself as well as any soul who wishes to know what to kinda sorta expect for this upcoming year.

And… Yeah? I don’t know what else to say here, but feel free to leave a comment about this or whatever else. While I do not want to take things into DMs, I would love to have a brief chat in comments, as always.

Have yourselves a good rest of the year, and I hope this next one is a better one for all of us.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays,
Kludge

The disappearance of Kludge Lizarda

Kludge

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    Geemo

    Best of luck, I know I'll be cheering you on as you work

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      Kludge

      I appreciate that very much. Thank you~

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    keirajo

    I definitely understand how you feel about being online. I had a conversation with someone IRL about being unhappy at where humanity’s going in regards to technology. The weird thing was, they freaked out that I was suicidal……so I guess I couldn’t make them understand my feelings. But it’s simply that I don’t like the internet—I’m only on a couple of sites because I have friends and people I like to talk to, that I can’t talk to otherwise. I tolerate it to a certain point for friendship, but if I didn’t go online at all, I’d be fine. As technology moves towards forcing everyone online for every single thing, we lose more and more humanity and treat each other terribly…….at least I feel like that, sometimes.

    I hope that some of your new directions in life take you closer to your dreams and want to do! I think it’s wonderful to walk away from this mess online and be here when you want to, not because you need to. :)

    Take care and I wish you the best of luck in the new year! :D

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      Kludge

      Very strange turn that they took your sentiment in. But I hear you loud and clear on all that. The technology bit is pretty unfortunate. I can't recall if I had mentioned anywhere, but I've been renting DVDs from the public library and playing them on a portable DVD player that I bought. Helps with consuming media while being disconnected from the internet and avoiding ads and other distractions. There's got to be a metric ton of films and shows I've never gotten to see (that most of the population has by now), and I'm finally getting to see them, so that's been fun.

      I hope this year goes great for you too, take care as well.

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        keirajo

        For as much as companies would like you to believe that "streaming is the only way to go"--my public Library still has TONS of people renting DVDs, which is why we still try to buy as many as we can. I think we shelve at least 100 DVD returns every single day! I know I rent some for myself here, as well.........but I do have a pretty hefty DVD collection personally. I have a lot that I watch over and over--or pop in as background noise.........some things like "Animaniacs" and "Psych" you can still laugh at their jokes without watching the screen--and I'll watch those when I'm drawing or writing. :)

        Portable DVD players are also nice! That's actually a small thing I've thought of getting, myself. Since my Library is "bigger" than many others (even here locally)--we have a special collection that we call "The Library of Things", which are commodities that people never realize they want to try (but don't want to buy). So, we also loan out portable shredders, portable DVD players, sewing machines--heck, we've even got a Cricut Air2! I've wanted to check that out myself, but the box is so BIG and I can't lug that thing around on the bus! XD

        I'm glad you're enjoying the stuff that your Library has to offer--I think a lot of people underestimate just what their Library can do for them.........or provide for them. Though mobile hotspots are the one thing I wish we DIDN'T have--they're wonderful little devices.......but patrons are so greedy and selfish with them that I'm like, yeah we should get rid of these.

        Thanks! Best wishes! :D