Hello, everyone! As you've probably noticed, I've been offline for quite a while recently here and this time it's because I've actually been feeling a lot better in the real/offline world and am finally starting to enjoy things in life again and have a positive outlook on things! I won't go into too much personal detail but I did get some medication to help me manage things and I'd say they've really been helping me quite a bit, and for the better. I knew that if I didn't take at least some form of action, my mental health would only decline more and more. Now that I have these meds after speaking to one of my doctors, things have been a lot brighter and the one thing that's really been stopping me aka anxiety is almost nowhere to be seen now on most days with these new meds. This means I've gone outdoors even more, whether to fursuit or just buying some new plants to take care of, things have been going a lot better and I wanted to focus on that and myself in the real world for a bit before putting back my focus on the online world again, as I haven't felt what it's like to actually "live" in the real/offline world for the longest of times! Y'know, actually being able to feel genuine positive emotion and enjoyment without having to be at a furry con to feel these emotions, for example! Now, I'm capable of feeling these emotions elsewhere as well such as at home or on my balcony garden! There's basically more spark in me again! That said, of course I still have my ups and downs and nothing will ever be fully perfect and that's okay too! These last few days, anxiety has actually been coming and going again but that seems to be normal with these meds at times so I guess that's something to be expected but these feelings of anxiety get significantly worse whenever I think of putting myself back online again, which does sadden me because I love and appreciate you all so much but unfortunately, your dragon pal Aoi is in a phase where it's better for me to focus on the real world for a bit rather than being online as much as I can. I will still continue to check up on you all if and whenever I feel like I can so that still hasn't changed! All in all, I'm doing a lot better but to maintain that progress, I feel like I really have to put my focus on getting and feeling better in real life first before I can take on the online world again fully, as the internet has always been something that can shatter my mental health within seconds, even when I was in a good mood, and that resulted in me feeling down in the real world as well more often than not. It's taken me a long time to admit that being online isn't always the best answer when I'm not in a good headspace, as one little thing such as a furry getting assaulted and harassed in my feed on YouTube, for example, is literally enough to send me further into a bad headspace. So basically, until I've become even stronger and more stable in the real world, I'm going to continue taking things slow regarding my online activity and once again, I can't thank those enough who still decide to stick by me and who are still here to this day! Love you all so much!! <3