Hey there everyone...

So this is really difficult for me to word, but last Sunday night a friend ended his life.

I'm working through brain fog, doing what I can to be there for those who were closest to him, and take care of the hurt and confusion in my household and my family of friends.

It is.... it is so hard to .... understand why. The deja vu I have to my Sir taking his life last year around this time is ... I'm sorry I'm having a hard time processing things.

just, please PLEASE know that you all are loved, you are NOT alone.

If any of you are feeling so dark, please reach out to me or to someone close to you. You can contact me at any time.... I'm easiest to reach on Telegram at "Grrrwolf".

Please take good and loving care of yourselves.

I love you all, we're all family.

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