So, a final journal update for this year.
2019 was a year that I personally have conflicting feelings about. I wouldn't really say it was a good year for me. But it didn't exactly start off as a bad year either... up until the very end. If you've read my previous journals, you can understand why.
As for how I'm doing, I think I've moved on for the most part. In fact, I think I'm handling it better than initially expected. I do still get sad from time to time, but that happens on few occasions. The sadness usually lasts a few seconds up to about a minute. Otherwise, I'm mostly fine.
I don't know what my plans will be for next year. But hopefully, when this next decade starts, I'll start working on my story. More characters, more worlds, more lore. That's what I hope to achieve when it comes to my art. That's one of the plans I have within my mental bucket list.
But yeah, end of the year. And not only that, it's the end of the decade.
Of course, this also means the start of both a new year, and a new decade. Although I have a feeling the late 2010's won't really be remembered fondly. All the politics, the wars, the natural disasters, all of it. Everything is kind of a huge mess at the moment.
But we can only do two things. One, we can say that next year is going to be a bad year, and let it become a bad year. Or, we can say that next year will be a great year, and we can all make it a great year together. At least, that's the ideal thought. It's not exactly realistic, but it's what we all hope for. But I'm more of a, “We'll see.” type of person.
I suppose to finish this off, I will say this. Even if my holidays weren't exactly the best, I sure hope yours were. And if you did, that's wonderful! I think you and the rest of the world need more cheerfulness in your lives. Be as optimistic as you can be, even when everything seems gloomy, because it won't stay that way forever. There's always a chance for the future to be better.
I wish you all a Happy New Year. And even if 2020 isn't a perfect year, let's at least try to make it decent, shall we?
Take care. I'll update if anything new happens.
2020's, here we come.
31 December 2019 at 04:30:42 MST