I'm back from my Christmas Break! Over my break, I had a lot of time to think. This journal is going to be quite important, and I truly believe it to be a turning point in my life. Please read it carefully, there is a lot to process.

So I'm pretty much miserable. I've been not happy for quite a while now. My life has been so unbelievably stressful. My only source of income is art. I've been surviving purely off of your support for years, and I am so incredibly thankful for that, but I cannot keep doing this.

I am so unbelievably burned out. I don't enjoy things like I used to and that worries me greatly. I have to draw all the time, which is a blessing, because there has been so much interest, and a curse, because I can't step away from it. It's causing me to get burned out on the things I love, like vore and art in general. I absolutely do not want that to happen. I love these things, they are my passions, I don't want to start hating them. I fear if I do not change my life now, that is exactly what is going to happen.

So I've made a big choice, I'm going to get a job.

I have not gotten a job in the past because I have hyper anxiety problems. I can't do basic things sometimes because my anxiety gets too high. However, my stress over having no money has beaten that anxiety out. I don't really care anymore about my anxiety, I feel even worse about not having any money at all. I feel useless, stressed, and joyless, and I absolutely need a change.

So this year, 2018, is going to be the year my new life begins. I'm going to be taking better care of myself, and actively working to make my life better. I'll be doing a few things in addition to getting a job that should help me.

I'm going to finish my first video game this year. In the past few years, I've been unable to make any real progress on my game because I've been so busy drawing. By the time I finish drawing, I just want to be off my computer, so I don't work on my game. The plan is to work on the game after work. If I dedicate time to it every day, I am confident that I can get it done before the year is over. A lot of my future will depend on how well that game performs. I'm not expecting it to do amazing, but if it does enough to make another one, I will be able to pursue my dream job, game development, as my full time career.

I also want to do more projects for myself. I just don't draw for myself anymore, I don't have the time, and this has sucked much of the joy out of art for me. I feel like you can feel that in my artwork, because I think it's shown in my numbers. I get less comments and interaction in my art nowadays, because i think people can feel my lack of passion. I want to get that passion back, and make better content for you guys by developing the art I want to draw. I want to explore ideas and concepts I've not been able to before, and just enjoy exploring my interests and passions. I have many ideas and I would love to bring them to life for all of you.

In an effort to reduce burnout, and reinvigorate my love for art, I will be changing how I manage commissions. I'll be doing them less as a result of the job, so I'll also have to be more clear about when I'm open and when I'm closed. The current commissions on my to-do list will be finished, then I won't be accepting any more while I look for a job. I will open them again when I feel motivated to, so please keep an eye out for any announcements if you are interested in getting something.

I know this is a lot to process, so please, if you have any questions at all, feel free to ask. I want to make this as clear as possible for everyone.

I love you all so dearly, I seriously dont think I'd be alive right now if it wasn't for the furry community. I have been able to survive because you all have supported my art for this long. I cant thank you enough and I hope that i can keep creating things you all enjoy. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this.

I hate to sound like I'm begging, but I seriously cant understate how much a ko-fi donation would help right now. If you want to help buy me some job hunting time, you can donate here to my Ko-Fi (you don't need an account to do so!) http://ko-fi.com/pieman

Thank you so much!