Sorry. This will be a long post. I'm very bad about keeping a journal. However, I AM really good about drawing a lot. So, I figured I might as well do a journal of sorts now and then with my art. And for this piece, it's a dream journal.

ABOUT THE DRAWING: First, I just want to say that I completely set this drawing up wrong. I like it better than my first one because the view is more dynamic. The problem, though, is that the way the art is framed, your eye is drawn up to the top-left of the picture because of how things are lined up, and the eye is not naturally focused on the giant stones, like it should be. The angle should have been less extreme, and it would've been a better set-up. Ah, well. Noted for next time.

THE DREAM: So, the dream was super weird. For the past 3 nights I've had dreams about being back home with my family in Georgia rather than out here. I don't feel like the dreams are premonitions of things to come, but I do feel that they are my subconscious fears given an abstract form and meaning.

In this particular dream, I walked home from my uncle's house from across the street. When I got home, I saw these giant stones lined up along the trees bordering our yard and our neighbor's yard. I noticed that the giant stones, much like tombstones of a sort, had my various interests on them. Art, games, and even some topics such as gender equality that I like to discuss with my friends and talk about. It worried me in the dream that these topics were so readily available and able to be viewed by my family, and I thought that they might know things about me that I'd prefer to keep more private since these stones were displaying information so readily.

I talked to my Mom about Dad for a bit, but he had just left to go to work, and I remembered that I had left something at my Uncle's. On my way out, I looked at the stones again, and I decided to try to remove and hide them. Even though they were very large, they weren't overly hard to move, and I dragged the first stone about ART onto the driveway and off of the grass. I noticed that the spot where the stone had once stood was sunken in. There was no grass on the spot, and it made the yard look ugly just having this really large, wet dirt patch where the stone was. However, there was a sealed bag in the depression, and it contained vegetables and seeds for growing. I picked it up and looked at it, and the thought crossed my mind of starting a garden with the bag I had found.

THE MEANING: Honestly, I sometimes have pretty good feelings about the meanings of my dreams, but a lot of this one is speculation. One thing I'm sure about, though, is that I'm a very private person who keeps things to myself. It would bother me if my family knew a lot of things about me that I just prefer to keep private. I feel that these secrets would really hurt the family (not that they would, I just feel that way), and that's represented in the dream as the yard looking ugly when I move the stone. The bag of vegetables and seeds represents new beginnings, and making something beautiful out of something that I fear to share with others.

TL;DR: I had a weird dream. I'm worried about sharing info with family because I'm a private person. My dream showed me that I have the potential to grow beautiful and wonderful things about of something that I fear to share.