Couldn't sleep...was having....deep doubts of myself...and if every one wonders what I look like udner my helmet, here the result. drawn myself a cartoon but...not exactly but think it'll do. So now Cue can stop poking at me. Or at least I remain quiet in my own room. IDK why really, this happen this morning and I ask myself "why...blah blah blah blah" all negative stuff, and becoming more distance with Vanessa. Feel more doubts in my heart then joy. Just don't know really. When I wear that mask, feel like i can become anything, form of different species and also something of good or evil, but now... been thinking clearly as sometimes RL can sometimes destory a fantasy. Or to make it short, me just destorying my own fantasy due to doubts. sighs so yeah...short vent and a questions to myself...

What am I?...

Well cause that is all.