"I've given up on believing..."

So I have been experiencing some reeeeally bad feels lately. My really bad feels don't seem to be like other people's bad feels in that they are muted, muffled, and relentless. Not sure what it is, but it must be something, given that I tried to take a nap this afternoon but couldn't fall asleep because my heart was racing OnO It's... it's just been really hard to want to do anything, never mind actually do something. Anywho, I started this a while back to drag myself back into drawing, and I like it :3 I think this came out really nice for something created in the dark abyss of this... state of being XD

I can't use any of my dumb nicknames for Sammy in this pic because he's in one of his serious moods :| He's lost everything; lost all that he owns, lost his dignity, and lost his loved ones. And he lost his faith. Sammy is deeply religious for the most of the story, but he has given up because, well, the Ten have seemed to abandon him.

But have they?

That bear? That bear is his father, passed, but reincarnated in the avatar of Kuri, the Peace spirit. Sammy clearly cannot see him, but his father his still there with him, the sky is alight with spiritual energies, but Sammy cannot see any of this. All he sees is darkness, solitude, and mourning.

Basically, this drawing is a nice summary of my feels as of late, but also a part of the story that I have wanted to illustrate for a while. :3 Not sure if I'm entirely happy with how I drew Bjorg's spirit, but hey, practice makes perfect :D

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