old artwork from 2011
"Can't you hear the voices?? Voices of self doubt in your head? The constant whisper of ugly truths..

Why..why do they love you? When will they leave?

It always happens, always has..always will. You cannot keep them.

You're broken, ugly, unwanted, unlovable..the only reason they stay now is because they don't know any better. Or maybe they just don't want to see you cry..they'll secretly build up a better life till the time is ripe to cut you clean and leave you to die.

To wander around confused as to just what is wrong with you..and what should you do.

You cant die..you cant kill yourself..you're too weak to let go to the hope it might work.

Maybe if you give up enough love, the pain of too much rejection and failure will just kill you. And then you can rest after they are bloated on your gifts and done with you.

Drained and empty, your soul and heart spilled out.

Will it end then? Or will your spirit wander forever in pain and want for love."