Old artwork from 2011
"I'm a being of pure emotions..passion..feelings..

I love.. I love like CRAZY. I hurt myself so badly for love. SO much it physically affects me. the pain the jealously, the hurt, the hurting others hurting me..

Its too much to bear, but I do it anyways...

I'm not some whore. My love isnt fake.

I don't know why I'm this way either.

Certain people I love more than others.. certain people hurt me more. Certain people have been given so much..and..and i can't give anymore...

I can't be what you want.. I can't give that. I know its hurting you, and I know you've been trying.

but you're killing me a second time..

I'm pacing inside, screaming, no where to go with this pain thats eating me away.

My mind can't wrap around it enough..i cant understand it.

It's an insanity..its an itch i cant scratch, a crack inside me that's just..growing and there's not enough sand to fill it..

You have so much power..and you dont even know it.

You nearly had me to yourself..

YOU FUCKED UP.. YOU MADE THE MISTAKE.

Why am I paying for forgiving and loving you past it? Why am I dying because you can't handle my efforts to fill the first crack you caused?

..why can't you just love me.. hurt with me and love me..

I can't do anymore"