I've spent too many hours on this and it's not even close to how I wanted it to look like...
I mean, yeAH, the pose, the sword, the whole setting is JUST like I imagined it to be
but, honestly, I don't know..

I like that this is the only normal picture I've ever drawn Ryan in
I always portray him as such a big grumpy asshole, while he's actually really caring, friendly, smart and he's absolutely not afraid to fight for his family and friends

THIS is Ryan. THIS is who I am.
He's not a badass; he is not strong - he's really fucking afraid of hurting someone and it's driving him nuts because THATS actually what he constantly does. He wants to protect everyone, but instead, he hurts and hurts... and it pains him. Sometimes he wishes he could just die, but then he remembers that there are people who need him, and he just cannot leave them behind.

(c) me
please don't use