03-12-2021.

Respective song (Classical Piano): https://www.weasyl.com/~jusutengu/submissions/2007740/mus-stalemate

Sustaining any semblance of complacency, satisfaction, or happiness has become significantly difficult. It goes away as quickly as it comes.

It seems impossible to look forward to anything anymore, musings of dying have re-entered my mind, I've been sulking, my heart is heavy and the bottom of my stomach hurts, and I even cried today, almost a 2nd time.

I currently no longer know what to do with myself, and my spirit and emotions are no longer as vivid. I'm at my wit's end.