14 January 2016 at 10:18:20 MST
I don't know if anyone will get offended by this rant, but it's my feelings on the matter...
I also written this weeks ago, so some of this stuff isn't relevant now.
I do feel like crying though...
I found some makers I like, but I don't have money for them yet... ;-;
Life friggin' hates me...
I'm a bit pissed off at the fact I waited 6 years for my fursuit. SIX. YEARS.
I want you to think about how long that friggin' is.
Lemme go over to a calculator and see how many days that is...
Okay, here we go: 2,190
I WAITED THAT LONG JUST FOR A WEARABLE PIECE OF ART
...THAT I'M GOING TO USE MORE AS A SECOND PERSONA THAN ART, BUT YOU GET MY POINT
The envy comes the fact I see so many fursuit makers proudly post pictures of their new creation and I see the happy faces of the clients who received them and it drives me MAD. I try not to be that jealous asshat who sits there and purposely gets upset at the fact someone put a ton of money into something that makes them happy coughcoughthoseguyswhoweremadatsyberforallofhersuitscoughcough, but after a LONG WHILE of constantly seeing suits that I want and seeing makers either full of customers, closed, too expensive for my itsy, bitsy budget, the suits are ugly/don't appeal to my personal aesthetic (and it seems some people REALLY don't care how their suit looks like it was made in the frigging '90s and it was made THIS YEAR) or etc., I get a bit pissed off.
HOW DARE THEY BE HAPPY WITH THEIR ADORABLE SUITS AND I HAVE TO WALK AROUND LOOKING LIKE THIS?!: (insert picture of myself here)
I AM OFFEND!
Seriously though, I feel just disgusting walking around like this. I want to be cute and lovable as well...
I dislike myself.
I HATE myself.
I believe 90% of the reason I'm depressed right now is because I hate myself.
The other 10% is because I don't have Dietrich.
bad, unfunny joke pity laughter rings out
Okay, wait, I waited more like... 2 years for something more like a kigurumi, but... since my face will still be showing, that isn't an option.
I waited 3 years for a mascot suit-ish thing, since I didn't know anyone could just GET a fursuit.
And, now I waited a whole YEAR for an ACTUAL fursuit.
I honestly feel at this point that Fursuit Di thinks I don't even want her anymore...
I know Dobie Di didn't exist until THIS year, but still.
I'm just really annoyed with seeing other people with their fursuits, with them only waiting POSSIBLY a year or two for theirs and I wanted to dress as an anthropomorphic dog for YEARS now. It irritates me because I wanna finally feel like a dog... for once in my life... after being denied it when I was younger... I just wanna be a dog... (among other animals)
...is that so much to ask...?
Okay, before this turns into that Wish-To-Be-A-Dog-And-You-Wake-Up-As-One scenerio, I obviously don't mean a REAL one... being a feral, normal dog? No...
And, I'm sure being a real anthropomorphic one will earn me a trip down to the CIA headquarters for slicing and dicing!
I wanna see what it feels like...
I think I'm ALSO pissed off because of the fact I seen people get MULTIPLE and I'm like "wait a minute, are you kidding me, I missed that slot because you needed your 50th suit, you douche?" (not directing this towards Syber, she's awesome) and trust me, after MONTHS of searching for a fursuit maker and finding the RIGHT ONE only to see some jerk-off took the slots before you and they ALREADY have a bunch of suits infuriates me. ESPECIALLY AFTER LOOKING FOR SO FREAKING LONG
...now as much as I would LOVE to say something nasty to them, I don't exactly like to ignite fights with people.
It's like a freaking arms race to find someone good and get to them before some other person does.
Also, I'm REALLY funny about how I pick out my fursuits. Like, one moment, I'm like "okay yeah, this one is JUST fine and affordable" and two minutes later, I see a suit that looks SO MUCH BETTER and soon I hate the original person's and will do WHATEVER I CAN for the new one. Even if I have to work after ho-- uh, I mean overtime at a respectable job... looks around nervously
Before you flame me about my negative wording about the people above, I will say that I'm harshly blunt about my opinions and I'm only stating how I feel. I'm frankly angered with the fact I'm STILL here without a suit and I STILL have to wait.
While Mr. Happy-Go-Lucky-Fursuiter over there gets to bounce around and be happy in his suit, while his many others collect dust in his closet.
SCREW THAT FRIGGING FOX takes out bazooka blows him up with missile pants heavily sees you WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT?!
I refuse and I mean REFUSE to go a con without a suit. No one will ever see my face. NO ONE.
Okay, well, except in places where fursuits are banned. BUT YOU GET MY DRIFT
Also, I must ask... why is it that it seems that every single good fursuit company seems to be closed or full JUST because I need them right now? I'm not joking.
EVERY SINGLE GOOD FURSUIT MAKER JUST HAS TO BE CLOSED RIGHT NOW!
THAT FREAKING SUCKS!
I can't even catch them when they're open...
...it makes me want to cry...
...I actually feel like crying right now...
*I don't hate President Obama, I just made a joke, calm your tits
Heh-hey, is no one going to question why Cartoon Me is upset? :XD:
She can bring anything into existence if she wants. Okay, ALMOST anything. She isn't... uh... well... points upward
She could have one if she wants. :XD: