deep pic and long descrip coming up :'}<3

credit to all the photographers who took the pics in the background! ^.^

so i have what is called a "job counsellor" a guy who helps me find work, explore my options as an unemployed young adult, but since i was down and i told him that i felt like i hadnt progressed at all since early-mid teenhood and i'd been rather depressed about it - hes not only qualified in job counselling, but actual counselling as well, and took it on himself to include that as part of my course! he told me, to write a letter to my younger self, telling her about where you are now and all of the positive things that i have achieved now, small or big, what life is now compared to what life was for me as a youngun! so i've one-upped him and included a pic with it!
for people that have known me long enough to know who that kitty is, indeed thats a very early Onyx from 2009 / 2010! and that age me is who i send this out to :} this is what i wrote to go with it, god i actually took the time to write properly n all for this :'D

Little me,

Hang in there girl. You're really young at the moment, but you have all these questions about life. Things you wanna do, places you wanna go, moments you want to experience - but you're stuck in the rut of school with really overprotective parents, and you don't feel like that's ever going to change. Correct? Well Little me, let me tell you a thing! Because I've seen the future, I've lived it and I've experienced it, and the things you have achieved so far are crazy - and you're not even 18 yet! Very close but not yet!
Do you remember writing in your diary about the Bolt x Onyx pairing having been made because you told yourself, that you were never going to be good enough, attractive enough or confident enough to find yourself a partner? I can tell you now, that you do! You have done three times, and for one of those you truly fell in love! You experienced love in all its beauty, made love to a man, held his hand and felt a complete sense of homeliness - and you experienced heart break in all its sorrow. And learned who were your real friends and who weren't in the process. But that's life, it's all a part of your first relationships and you shouldn't stop there! Heart break and loss of friendships is one small part of what you are about to experience and it wouldn't be the full package without it! And hey, eventually you realised that you swung both ways, developed feelings for a person of the same gender and actually admitted to her that you liked her! Sure you remained cuddle buddies, but how's that for no confidence eh?
Remember writing about how you felt trapped in your home, having dreams in far off towns and cities, going past the train station on the bus and wishing so bad you could just take the CrossCountry all the way? Knowing deep down that your parents wouldn't ever let you for fear of you getting hurt? Well let me tell you another thing. To this day you're the most well travelled person you know, in a different town or city practically every weekend, and you've done the CrossCountry journey you always wanted to do! You've travelled the country, for love, for recreation, for friendships (of which you now have many, amazing and truly dedicated and loyal friends all over the country) - never give up on that dream because you will get there! You're now knowledged in many rail lines, you've travelled to London too many times to count and explored it alone, you have independance and as expensive as your new best hobby is going to be, never give up on it because it makes you the happiest you can be when you're travelling again!
You've attended college, attended college in a relationship, attended college with a broken heart, and still came away with two diplomas successfully; you've worked in a real, paid job for a month or so, had the "being fired experience", you've done the fruitless job hunting, attended interviews, aced interviews and came away from interviews with nothing; you've started commissions as a paid form of work just like you always wanted to; you've made so many new and genuine friends, you've fallen in love and travelled the country, and none of the bad things held you back from being you!!
I wouldn't be where I am now, if I hadn't had the experiences I had faced when I was you, little me. You're my own hero from the past and it's thanks to you that I am where I am now! And I'm sure a future me will be back to tell the 17 year old me all that I've yet to look forward to, so never give up because you never know what amazing experiences lie ahead!