I'm honestly tired now. I want to be happy and not feel lonely for once in my life, but it seems that the one thing I want most also wants me away from me.

Everywhere I look, I see lovers. I see happy couples and married people, but when I look at myself, I'm alone and miserable. I have my crushes, sure, but recently, stuff has happened that made me rethink if I should even keep trying to look for love.

The guy I wanted so badly fell in love with my friend. Another friend ended up dating this person that, only weeks ago, he called out for being rude. Another happy couple forged their relationship despite one of them being pansexual. And what about me? I'm still here, with the smallest sliver of hope imaginable. I'm not sure I can even hold on to it much longer.

What's the point, anyway? If I look for love I'm always the one that ends up losing. Hell, I'm not even sure if my crush would accept me if I asked him right now. It's always the same.

The good news is that I'm finally out of school, meaning I don't have to worry about going outside and having love cover my face. Even so, though, love wants me nowhere near it.

Everyone always says love is blind. I think it sees me clearly, because it always finds a way to escape my sight.