Friday I'm going to meet with a career counselor at my university. I'm a bit nervous because the conversation inevitably turns to my strong points, only I don't feel I have very many strong points; my liabilities are a much bigger concern to me.

I don't want to dwell on my liabilities, so here's what little I have to work with:

-I have an excellent entry-level CV as a writer; my strong suit is in written communication.
-I am extremely good at researching, fact finding, and digging up information.
-I have some training in using database software (though I'm both out of practice and out of date).
-I have a BA in social science

In our first conversation the topic of jobs working as a paralegal or as a government clerk came up. Those are both steady jobs that pay enough to live on and involve working with information over working with people, which is good.

I just hope my liabilities- the real elephant in the room- don't prove to be insurmountable first of all, and second of all that the jobs don't get gobbled up by infinitely more qualified candidates before I can even apply. More than anything, I have a profound sense of being unable to compete and at a disadvantage to people who get ahead with glibness and superficial charm, of which I have exactly none. Then if I can get a job, will I be able to keep up with the demands, or will I get terminated for performance like I usually do for being a monotasker who can't properly organize more than a few tasks at a time?

I don't have much hope for the future. Exactly why I'm expected to pretend I have a chance is beyond me.