Job hunting..
Getting nothing so far..
Offered to be a cashier if hired...

I shouldn't be working as it is, with this injured back and these issues inside my brain progressively getting worse (I've noticed they've been increasing in severity for the past 3 months) but I really have no choice.. I applied for health care under medicaid, but they didn't bother sending the correct fucking forms..so I can't even go to the hospital for all these mounting issues..not that I'd really even say anything was really wrong aside from my back.. that's my problem.. I keep everything inside so no one has to see how fucking awful I really am..

Some people do drugs, some people drink, some people gamble..but all I want to do is disappear...or self harm... something to make the pain go away..