For a little over a week now, my depression and anxiety have been hitting me hard. The good news is that I've scheduled a session with a therapist...the bad news is that it's a few weeks off. I'm failing a class, I've come out as transgender to a few people (most of whom don't talk to me as much anymore) including my love interest (who is no longer interested now), I've yet to explain this to my parents, I can't eat, sleeping is a pain, waking up is a pain, I've no motivation to do anything at all aside from lose myself in gaming or art but I can't do that until my class is over which is next week.

I'm lost and I have very little friends aside from my online ones (and even then I count them on one hand).

All the time I think "Why can't I be smarter?" or "Why can't I just be "normal?"" or "What's the point of going on anymore?"

It's starting to affect my work now. I mess up more, I get defensive more, I space out more. This in turn puts more stress on my already stressed out mind.

I just hope that I can make it until May.