Some of you have been wondering....
Maybe a few.
I dunno.

I'm not doing so well. For the longest time, I was kind of just holding things together, what with Brim's depression worsening. The more things pile up on top of us, the more it falls to me to get things done. I was able to shoulder the burden and keep working for a while, but really after finding that I couldn't even take two weeks off to myself to work on what I wanted to, the stress of it all finally broke me.
I don't like admitting it, but for the past week or so, I've been in the worst depression of my life. I haven't said anything because I figure nobody wants to hear me bitch and moan. Everyone has problems.
My mind has gone to some pretty dark places. I haven't thought about hurting myself, don't worry... but at the same time, part of me would be okay with it if I was say, diagnosed with some kind of horrible terminal illness. I could just give up.
Giving up was looking really good for a while there.
For a while... I was just simply unable to give two fucks about anything. I'd try to work... but then got convinced I suck at everything and shouldn't bother trying. Nothing was improving my mood--all my usual escapes just weren't helping.
After spending some time with family, I feel a little better--good enough to TRY working again, at least. I'm very sorry to Kujura, Darkzigi and Sexy_Mare who have paid for and are waiting on their commissions.
Those of you who have expressed interest in commissioning me but haven't yet paid, again, sorry I've kept you waiting/haven't communicated. I haven't talked to ANYONE much lately. That's the unfortunate nature of the beast that is depression. Part of the way it tries to consume you is you subconsciously try to make yourself as unlikable as possible so you'll get the manufactured proof that 'people don't like you and want you to go away'.
I'm trying to talk to people again.
I'm trying to get caught up again.
I'll be in contact with you folks again soon. Maybe even a livestream. I'll just keep trying.
This has been a long time coming and it's taken a long time to admit to myself that I just don't have it in me to keep pulling the load on my own. Compounding the problem is financial worries, but I know other people have it worse than we do, so I've been reluctant to talk about that in general.
I'm going to try and get back to commissions today. I'm going to make it my top priority, psyching myself up to just do SOMETHING on them today. We'll see what comes of it.
Rest assured, if I keep being depressed/just can't work today, I'm going to have to consider talking to my doctor about anti-anxiety medication.