Random uncalled for journal, but I just feel the need to vent about this topic since it has been brought up to me by various family members a lot lately.

So lately, my mom has been trying to steer me in a few different directions on this. I'm an adult, still single, and she's worried. She doesn't seem to fully understand how bisexuality works, and to sum it up cleanly, she thinks I'll end up with multiple partners. She thinks I'm essentially not the type to get married, or have any kind of relationship.

And is pushing me towards the priesthood. Note to other faiths: Catholic priests cannot get married ever. She's telling me how being a priest is what God is calling me to do, and that I should not even really consider a relationship, especially with a guy. How raising children is difficult, too difficult for someone of my type.

Over the weekend, I received a little unsolicited advice from my grandmother. Basically, she thinks my mom's example of choosing a spouse is flawed, and wants me to steer away from Cubans (my real dad's race) and whites (my stepdad's race.) She wants me to be careful when selecting a girlfriend, and hold off marriage for several years, and dump her if I so much as see a $1 scratch ticket anywhere near her.

My uncle, who is in some kind of weird christian-jewish blend cult, basically told me unless I marry a Jewish girl, whose heritage is directly from the tribe of Judah, I'll be sentencing all my family to hell, both my living family and my future children. And that I should have a lot of children, so the chosen people can take over the world population wise. I don't know where the logic falls from, but apparently, according to his weird cult, only Jewish people from that tribe go to heaven, and every other race is hell bound no matter what. Now, I don't know a lot about Judaism, but I'm gonna call 100% bullshit on this from my Catholic Christian standpoint.

My brother is giving me other advice. He's 17, younger than me, and I don't know where he even gets off giving me relationship advice. He tells me that I need to marry a guy or girl of a certain 'fit' body type, that I should either go for an Asian or a Puerto Rican. I should avoid Jewish and Muslim people because of their violent tendencies (WTF?!), focus basically on either Buddhists or Atheists, and avoid anyone who thinks KFC, WalMart, McDonalds, Fox News, or the lottery are in any way smart choices.

My stepdad just says no f*cking fags and no f*cking minorities (what does he think I am, white?) I don't care what he says; just throwing this in.

Now, here's the thing: I'm an adult, but I'm only 19. I'm a Sophomore in college, focused on my academic career. I have no one in mind in terms of a relationship, with either gender. But, all these different things are getting to me.

What do I want? Do I want to marry someone, spend the rest of my life with them? Do I want to live the married life? Do I want a family, do I want children? What should I look for in a wife? Husband? Should I remain single and become a priest?

I just want my family to chill out >< This is too much pressure to put on a person who not too long ago contemplated selling internal organs to afford my short term schooling goals. Don't make me decide the conditions of who I spend the rest of my life with!

I'll leave this here for now. If you read all the way through, sorry.