I’ve been saying that a lot lately and I’ve decided that it is my motto for 2015. I travelled for the first time to Pennsylvania and stayed for 2 nights, it was really cool to explore and see some sights and meet some people (you know you are, and I’m sure if you know me well enough you know who I am talking about)

It was my first time doing anything like this and I thought it be a good testing of the waters for what possible future adventures I may have – No, it’s not a guarantee I’ll be doing this again.
I was already nervous and shy doing this thing, and there were times and moment where I felt uncomfortable, it’s how it is when you try something new.

Also, hotels are a good idea, yes they may cost more but I found that after this experience (while nice) I do prefer an
environment I can control.

Anyways, this was one example of myself exploring my horizons, and quite literally too may I add. It was an enjoyable experience, but I cannot be certain how often I would do this.
I do have a life outside of this fandom and community and the people in it are far from the kind of people that this particular part of my life holds.

I love you guys and you’re all terrific, but if people from my real life learned of all this and what I am into and what I draw, just..no. Bad things.

I am also one day going to actually have to grow up too, and my future here remains uncertain. I do plan to get married (potential girlfriend is possible), have kids and a life that really won’t have any time for this place here, but I feel that the 5 years I have been here has really made this community a part of me, (a secret part of me) but still a part of me, and one I can keep for myself.

Yeah, so summary:
I explored and travelled FARRRRRRR out of my comfort zone and I liked it and didn’t like it. SO what does this mean? Try more things like it? Stay in my comfort zone? Conceal don’t feel? Apples or Bananas?
:P

You get my point. I’m glad to be back home and I don’t plan to leave it anytime soon.
Missed all of you <3

That human you sometimes devour,
ilbv