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Mopey Bun by sixrabbits
I dunno
I'm just down
again.
I'm going to try to focus some energy on those trades, but its taking a lot out of me to even come up with ideas.
It's extremely frustrating to just drop like a stone after feeling kind of okay for a while.
Part of it is being in a job that doesn't pay well and not even being sure if I want to be in the career I trained for. I basically have no hope for my future.
It's frustrating not being able to pinpoint why I am upset. I actually wrote a rambling paragraph about things that do upset me but none of them ring true... I complain too much.
Mopey Bun
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I've previously been diagnosed with the fun anxiety/depression combo.
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I can totally relate. I sometimes feel the same way, career wise and also just wandering upsets. But I also have hereditary depression and apparently pretty bad anxiety that I was ignoring. Best thing I do is when I am listing upsets I also list why or what things that relate. Other times I make myself see positive things.
My dad says its good to complain, just have one good solid mope and then give it a Valhalla send off. He always said feel the emotion, let yourself be upset and write it all out. Usually that works for me.
Jerb wise I am always terrified I will be stuck back into retail sales specialist positions. I did my time in the front lines and now my fiance has told me to just do what makes me happy. But its the only job I really ever was super skilled at [depressing thought as it's considered a job for losers] and I worry that I won't find anything I am good at.
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Sometimes it ticks me off that I work under people with lower reading/writing skills than some high school students.
It's just frustrating to be up and down so much.The sad thing is that I almost don't want to leave this job because at least there I have knowledge that people rely on (specifically jewelry).
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Oh yeah. Jewelry is good to know about. Lots of people don't know what an alloy is or even simple stuff. I was trying to get into jewelry but it was too nerve wrecking with thieves and crazy ladies.
I was a wig sales specialist, intimates specialist, textiles and home plus luggage specialist over my years as well as a bridal specialist and I still have crazy knowledge that kept me in those jobs because I like specialising and knowing a product.
I worked under people that didn't know what unmedicated meant with my severe depression. I only had coworkers that understood. Most of my managers had no hr training skills or really knew how to manage. I found it really annoying that I knew more rules than they did with workers rights.
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Thieves and crazy ladies, that sounds like an interesting story.
I teach some of the bare basics and there are people out there that struggle with following instructions. Opening a jump ring is like solving a rubix cube to some of the people I teach (mostly bored housewives that are too dumb to look this shit up on youtube). One of the few competent students I've had is a young woman with down's syndrome who is in the store all the time.It makes the job a million times easier when you know stuff about it. I've learned a lot about fabrics and sewing since I've been there. A few things about framing too.
Oh yeah, it's insane how little someone can know and still be a manager. The store manager is a jerk too. He knows I have rats and that I'm a vegetarian, and he constantly makes jokes either about how his dogs killed a rat the other day, or makes some kind of jab at my diet.
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You and I have similar reasons for being mopey right now.
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Yeah, being stuck in a crappy job bites. There is a better job out there, but I know I'll be in pain every day at that job because I'll be on my feet on a concrete floor
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Ugh, yeah, THAT'S always obnoxious. I hope you at least have good shoes? :/
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Yeah, I scored a good pair in the clearance rack at the shoe store.
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Maybe need to hang out with friends more?
I am fighting on not getting to down again myself, appearantly I get depressed every 2-3 year -.- ... and I know some of the reasons why but not been dealing with it.-
They don't really have time. None of us really do. I work nights and everyone else works days.
Normally I suffer from SSAD (summer seasonal affective disorder) so it's weird that I'm depressed in the winter.
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That is no fun ... hope you and your friends manage few days off somehow so you can relax with each other and hang outBit out of season yeah ... 0.ó
Anything that has gotten similar lately that makes the depression kick in during summer?-
I really only hang out with 2 people on the regular. The rest it's kind of just once in a while.
I'm not sure what led to it, other than I've just finally work down from stress.
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you might want to talk to your doctor. I had this problem too and found out it was anxiety.