New Server

Thanks to one Prannon, my mate dragon-architect and I now have a pair of Dell PowerEdge 1850 rack-mounted servers to toy with. I have been given one of them, and have already installed Ubuntu Server onto it. The other needs a new RAID battery, and both need new CMOS batteries and more memory, but they are otherwise in excellent condition. I plan on using mine to toy with XMPP and IRC, as well as MPD.

I may be a Windows user now, but even I realize that for a server, you really cannot beat Linux. Plus, I cannot afford Windows Server. >..>

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Writing

My writing is going rather slow at the moment. I am still encountering an issue where any attempt to write erotica, whether in role play or story, results in what feels like a small anxiety atteck. I do not know what is triggering it for certain, though I believe that stress may be a reason. More on that in a few jump-cuts.

I have been working on a non-erotic story, though. In fact, two long stories in the same universe, both inspired by attempts to write erotica. I have been rather 'absorbed' with filling in the details of the universe itself. There has been a lot of work with this one, including the beginnings of an entire language. Far more than I put into Falling Apart.

I am also still blogging, and will continue to do so. You can find my blog at Prismdragon.Net, though I may change the software to Anchor before long. Wordpress is becoming more and more vulnerable.

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Social

Once again, just to reiterate, I have completely ceased using Twitter aside from the occasional "needed" tweet, as well as links to my Wordpress posts (for now). The only social networks I can be found on now are FurGather and Facebook. There are also a few services with social aspects that I use, namely Wattpad, Goodreads, and Smashwords. However, I use them as services, and nothing more.

(Mid-post edit: I wish to keep what I wrote before, but something has come to my attention. Perhaps it would be best for me to withdraw from social media altogether. No more Facebook, Twitter, or anything of the sort. Services I use (Facebook logins, Wattpad, Goodreads) would be kept, but Twitter and FurGather would need to go completely. I would also still be a blogger, but otherwise, I would go dark. It is something I need to consider, for my own sake. For now, I have simply unlinked everything from my Twitter and Facebook feeds.)

I have not been in a truly social mood due to stress issues (again, explained in a couple of jump-cuts), which is why I have not been on IRC or Skype all that often. This will likely continue for a while, so please be aware of this.

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Writing and Speech Patterns

One may notice that my writing has become somewhat more formal, even on Facebook and FurGather. This is due to reasons explained in a post on my blog, which I will link to below.

http://prismdragon.net/blog/posts/guren-behaviour-and-habits-part-1

There will be more changes, either starting with the next solar year (Jan 1st, 2015), or next lunar year (Feb 19th, 2015). They are also explained in the blog post.

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Stress, Habits, and Behaviours

I have come to the point where I feel a rather painful tightness in my chest, and every time I believe I can explain it away with something else, something begins to put stress on me, and the pain returns. This is part of why I left Tumblr and Twitter: stress. Both sites have literally made me terrified of posting anything, for fear that some out-of-control mob will swarm me and try to ruin my life.

Home life has also been rather stressful, though I have learned to start tuning it out when I can. (I love my mates, but I also have to look out for myself. Otherwise, it just makes them angry anyway.)

http://prismdragon.net/blog/posts/guren-behaviour-and-habits-part-2

In both the above link and the link prior, I explain that I wish to begin changing many things about my life, and I have been trying to do so. It is not easy, and I will admit that many things keep me from fully changing some of my habits right now—the rain keeping me from walking, home life keeping me from switching to a nocturnal schedule, and the lack of public parks keeping me from being out in a natural area more.

Some of the behaviours I wish to change are very difficult to do so given how people are, especially concerning my speech habits. I am thankful for my mates, my master @@achiga , and people like @@digitalpotato and @@xolroc being more than accepting of the changes I wish to make, but it is extremely difficult to make those changes when you are constantly forced to hide them around people who are not as accepting.

Society is a frightening thing...