If you've noticed I've been writing a whole lot more journals lately than normal and that most of them are downers, this is why.
There are a few reasons for this, actually, some of which I'm not particularly comfortable discussing. The biggest, however, is something I'm comfortable discussing because I already have. Lately I've been dealing with the fallout from this and especially this. I'm only recently coming to terms with the fact that I do in fact have the problems outlined in the second link (happening as a result of some of that stuff I don't want to talk about, for the record) and I've been feeling terrible as a result. This was kind of exacerbated by the fact that the only people who offered me any sort of support after that second journal were just random watchers/followers and not really any of my actual friends (petty, I know, and I don't blame any of my friends for it, but that's the kind of stuff that goes through one's head when one is in a funk).
I don't really know if it's going away, either. I'd actually been feeling better earlier in the week, but that "International Men's Day" nonsense on Wednesday went and made me angry and sent me right back into my foul mood; I have very limited tolerance for any "cause" that claims that any class of people who have been in charge of society for thousands of years are "the real victims" of categorism/bigotry/prejudice because, frankly, that's exactly what Focus on the Family is.

Hopefully things will improve relatively soon. Thanks for reading if you did.