I will always remember...

I will always remember
The 14th of September
For that was the day
my soulmate came
And proved to me
there is such a thing
As true and meaningful love
And swept me off my feet

One week ago today would have been our 7th Anniversary.
If drama had not arisen so badly that we were torn apart.

I have been very sorry for my part in all that drama.
For my reactions to the things that happened.
And to things I felt were there.

I continue to strive for improvement, for I never wish for a repeat of such bad behavour.

It does say something though - that for 7 years, we really only had 2-3 real issues with each other.
We made each other happy, made each other laugh.
We loved each other for who we are.

I do forgive him, myself, and those around us who fed all of it. Leading to those terrible reactions from both of us.

I also thank those around me who helped me to see the truth, and hope someday he can see it too.
I thank him for his love, compassion, and support - along with his own help.
I thank others for their support during some dark and dreary periods of our lives.

The 14th of September will always be an important day for me, because it was the start of 5-6 years of true love and happiness for both of us.

I ask that we all remember the good times. Remember how we make each other feel.
Forget the negativity that used to sorround us, join in the celebration of light.
Remember the happiness that was shared - Two souls uniting as one.

I will feel blessed to know he could find it in his heart to forgive me for my terrible reactions to the things that were being fed to me. To the things that made me worry more and more about exactly what I made myself do - which was losing him.

If he were to find in his heart the ability to give me a second chance, I would be deeply honored.
And if those things could be worked out and we can see that happiness in each other again, I will truly know in my heart that nothing could keep us apart. That knowledge alone will give me the strength and compassion to be better for him and to never follow that dark trail again.

I do hope we can see the light in each other again.
And I do hope we can both see that true happiness once more.

With love and compassion forever
I will always be a starlight.