Between you and me

The following Powerful Lyrics help to describe my recent transitions, and my journey to enligtenment...

A journey to become better, which has also become a journey back to some of my roots.
Today, I can sense more, be more...I have improved

"The disease of self runs through my blood
It's a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring this sickness under control"

"I keep trying to find a life
On my own, apart from You
I am the king of excuses
I've got one for every selfish thing I do

What's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior"

"Sorrow is a lonely feeling
Unsettled is a painful place
I've lived with both
For far too long now
Since we've parted ways

I've been wrestling
With my conscience
And I found myself to blame
If there's to be any resolution
I've got to peel my pride away

Just between you and me
I've got something to say
Wanna get it straight
Before the sun goes down

Just between you and me
Confession needs to be made
Recompense is my way to freedom now

Just between you and me
I've got something to say

If confession is the road to healing
Forgiveness is the promised land, oh
I'm reaching out in my conviction
I'm longing to make amends, yeah

So I'm sorry for
The words I've spoken
For I've betrayed a friend
We've got a love
That's worth preserving
And a bond I will defend"

"Honesty becomes me
(There's nothing left to lose)
The secrets that did run me
(In Your presence are defused)
Pride has no position
(And riches have no worth)
The fame that once did cover me
(Has been sentenced to this Earth)
Has been sentenced to this Earth"

"Separated, I cut myself clean
From a past that comes back in my darkest of dreams
Been apprehended by a spiritual force
And a grace that replaced all the me I've divorced"

"Lovely traces
I can sense You in everything
I'm overtaken by the way that You deliver me
I'm transcended
There's no place I'd rather be
Than here in Heaven
Without You I'm incomplete
It's hopeless

You consume me, You consume me
Like a burning flame running through my veins
You consume me moving through me
Anytime, anyplace You invade my space
You consume me, You consume me

Wholly devoted
I immerse myself in You
Baptize me in Your love
Cause drowning in the thought of You
Floods my soul
I'm taken by the things You do
God, You know
It doesn't matter what I lose
I'm Yours"

It is amazing what one can do when true love has been involved and when guided in the right direction - even if he failed to realize that in the begining. I had fallen apart on that true love, and let my own insecurities get in the way.

There is no more need of that, for I am a better person. I have made a good mark on this world, and I have become something worthwhile. Yet, this journey still continues, for becoming better is something one should do every day.

The roots I returned to have been the same roots of faith based Christianity. The teachings of love, kindness, and compassion of Jesus Christ. The teachings of Forgiveness, no matter the cost.
That is where my enlightenment is. I am compassion, and I am caring.

However, this journey has been a hard one. There is still some pain from the things that had to happen for me to learn my lessons.
Including me losing, at least for now, the one who has been my everything. The one who I truly have love and care for. The one that means the world to me.
My muse and my light.

Live, Love, Learn, Forgive, and Heal.

I love you wuff, you know who you are, and thank you.
I won't give up.

The Lyrics are from:
Between You and Me by DC Talk - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6kXJdshVNq0
In the Light by DC Talk - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2WlRt8z5bHA
Jesus Freak by DC Talk - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kbB0QrBIs9k
Consume Me by DC Talk - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uVlod4SdLD8

A new song for inspiration:
Speak Life by Tobymac - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZeBv9r92VQ0

Thank you for reading this, now for a song to the One I miss every day -
The One who truly loved me, The One I wish to be with (Again, you know who you are):

All of me by John Legend - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=450p7goxZqg