Or at least is has been for a few weeks now XD
(copied from FA)
Winter has refused to give up its hold on us for quite some time now but I think its finally giving up =D
Unfortunately....I am experiencing a terrible art block . Actually....I am not sure I can even call it that. Ever since I was a kid art has been my passion, my only real talent, or true calling. It was never a doubt that art would always be a part of my life, and something I would always do. Never ever had any doubts about that.

Over the years I have had doubts of my capabilities, the usual stuff any artist goes through when trying to observe their work and recognize where they need to improve and grow, that kinda thing, what direction they need to take to further better their skills and adapt to new knowledge. But for the first time in my life, I have seriously felt....almost afraid, that my art abilities are leaving me. Its hard to explain, almost as if the passionate fire that burns within me to create is just flickering beneath the ashes, threatening to go out at any time.

Maybe I am just over reacting, its probably just the fact that I have so much time on my hands and don't feel the pressure to create. Hopefully when I get a job here in the near future that urgency will come back and the need to create will feel as important as ever. Commissions usually help with this but they have come to a bit of a stand still. The paper burns I mentioned in my last journal, I have at least 3 of them started but can't seem to make myself sit down and make any headway. Its almost to the point where if I do get the urge to create I am afraid to stop to do anything out of fear that I won't come back to it to finish it, and so far that has happened 3 times XD

There are a couple new commission options I want to open up for and have made a little head way on how to post them on here in as simple of a way as possible to help avoid confusion but I just worry that I tend to over complicate things sometimes LOL!

So thats where things are, just thought I would post this out there for yas so you know whats up =P