A new me...

Yes, some issues came up that led me to break up with Kyu.

I had moved too soon and was not over Mixy at all - if you could tell.
Among other issues I had with the cute fox that ultimately pushed me away.

But Mixy did not come between me and Kyu, it was a combination of many, many things.

I needed to give myself time to think, space to think with, and time to heal and become a better person.
I need to make some serious changes about myself, for I was drastically wrong about the wolf I have not only given 5 years of my life to - but also the same wolf who still has my heart.

I had not made it known what those issues were, and I will continue to hold those to myself.
They were things that led me to believe I had made a mistake in trying to replace Mixy so quickly.

I had been selfish, childish, rude, and an unpleasant person to be around.
There was no excuse for my behavior towards Mixy, Kyu, and others.
There was no excuse for the things I said and done during these times.

Therefore, I apologize to everyone, for I was wrong.

For now:
I need to take the time to learn from my past.
To learn from my mistakes.
To grow and become a better person.

I see now that me and Mixy were something wonderful, magical even.
And while I made serious mistakes in my moments of doubt, I believe he and I can work things out.. and at the very least, become good friends.

I will admit right now, as it stands - I do wish to have another chance with Mixy.
However, I do not wish to repeat my mistakes of the past.
Therefore, I need some time to myself to focus on improvement.

I am grateful for the friendships I have, including those with Mixy and Kyu.
The things that have happened opened my eyes and made me see myself.
Now I need to focus on changes that so desperately needed to be made.

If Mixy were to decide to give me that chance, only him and myself will be able to properly determine if I am ready to be in a real relationship again.

For now, I will work on improving myself and see where things go.

I will continue to consider Mixy and Kyu members of my pack.

I am sorry for my mistakes, and thank you all for putting up with me.