I never wanted to be that kind of artist, but I have no other choice right now.
I've been on my vacation for roughly two weeks now. I was really looking forward to this because I was having a lot more time on my hands than usual for commissions and things alike. Turns out, I was pretty wrong about it.

I don't really know how to put this without sounding like just a lazy bastard. But the things is, ever since my vacation started I was hardly able to work on commissions at all. I finished a few and I'm glad I did and I'm glad my commissioners liked them. But I can't get myself to work on those for longer than 5 minutes without getting distracted, not to mention to make me work on them in the first place. Same goes for the contact I'm having with my commissioners, since I can hardly get myself to reply in time and sometimes even forget about it for a week or so. This also equals a huge waiting time for my customers, and I just get the feeling that this is NOT how this is supposed to work. They never told me otherwise, but I feel like I can't give my customers my whole 100% anymore and don't satisfy them anymore like I used to. All of this also had a great impact on me and my emotional life. I feel terrible when thinking about the commissions I still have to finish and that I have to force myself to work on those, and this makes me feel even worse. Apart from those, I've been on an emotional roller coaster for the past weeks as well, combined with the mentioned commission-issue this just makes everything worse. I'm just not strong enough to keep this going.

Therefor, for the first time in 6 years, commissions will be ultimately closed and due to my situation right now, all orders will be canceled!
Please note that this does NOT apply to those who I already received the money from! I'm not that kind of person. I will sit down the next three weeks and will complete those in time, promise. Just give me some time please, I don't feel the best right now. :/

And while I'm on it, I was also having a drop in commission-prices in mind before this all happened. I wanted to get rid of all those separate journals I made and create a graphic commission-chart like most of artists do these days. Apart from that I also wanted to change my way of accepting commissions. I've been planning to close my commissions for a while and wanted to try out offering occasional slots, for example every time I was on a vacation and had some free time from university. With opening slots I'd be able to have a better control about how much work I'd take on and how to deal with it.
Right now that isn't an option of course, since I have to recover from whatever my emotions have to deal with right now. Please understand.

I will contact my commissioners whose commissions I will be canceling later today or tomorrow. Once again, I'm very sorry. :(