As some people might be aware of, when I attempted to resume a "livestream schedule" yesterday, my computer had a bluescreen of death in the middle of the livestream. The crash was so bad that the computer would keep crashing whenever I booted Windows outside of safe mode... this was fixed only when I was able to uninstall my graphic tablet's drivers.

I'll probably reinstall the tablet on the desktop soon. In anyways, it still functions perfectly on the laptop for the meanwhile. But it's obvious I cannot reliably stream anymore.

So, until I can find the proper source of this issue... I'll need to find a new business model because it's clear a livestream work is just outside of my current technical abilities. I really wish I knew what causes the conflict when I stream that cause such crash but for now... I don't and until I do I cannot fixes it. And I've sadly only got so much time and energy to devote to it due to many things in my RL since this year started.

Which brings me to the subject of triggers.
Lately, a lot of things have become.... "triggers" for me I fear. Many of them are related to emotional issues which I've struggled with lately but in many ways they have found ways of regular work in ways that manage to trigger some of these painful memories despite an otherwise lack of readily understandable link. Please understand this is why I may not take on certain type of works for a while. I'll try to eventually make a list for such.... but it's one of the thing why for now I cannot take TF sequence commissions. Please don't asks me why or when I will resume taking such commissions, I'm already struggling with a lot. If I'm doing this, it's to try and keep sane enough to keep productive.

I still take TF commissions, just not as downright sequences.

When I'll feel more secure enough I might take short TF sequences again for some people I know enough to trust that the subject of their commissions will still feel comfortable for me.

I will try to complete my current batch of offline commissions(there is still two open slots), find a setup and way of both doing art and taking commissions that isn't dependent on running livestream sessions(at least until I fix my issue) and then write a new journal about how things will be handled once I know how I will function.