So, I put on my twitter (@RubyCoyote) that I am somewhat scared to go to FWA. I feel explaining it on Twitter wouldn't be easy so I'm just going to vent here.

I'm scared because of how many people are going and how I am going to be forcing myself not to stick to the people I know from Florida. I wish I could hang out with them but I just don't know what I would possibly do to keep from being annoying. I somewhat predict me only leaving the room every once in a while so I don't seriously panic when I am out.

I wish I could just hang out with the people I know but I know they can only handle me just… standing there for only an hour or two. Just thinking about it makes my skin crawl. I really think I should have waited and chosen a smaller first con, like Megaplex… I guess it's really really too late for that.

I don't know how people work at cons, considering I've never been to a con. I think if anyone will need me, I'll try to stay in the pool or something. Even if it is FREEZING. I love pools and that would be a place where I would be completely comfortable. So, fun fact. You want to get to know me any? Get to know me in a pool setting.

I'm rambling. Okay. I'm just trying to get over this anxiety of all those people and not really being able to rely on the friends I already know and love…