Soo this is my first real journal here, I wish it could be on a more positive note..

So I've been quiet for a while since this is the only time I've been able to have proper internet, heating, electricity, etc. I'm staying at my dads, originally I was staying at my boyfriends house (who has no electricity or hot water).

It's a good thing I did because water got into the house, four feet of it, the first story and garage is destroyed and I lost some stuff in my garage. Also both my mom and her husband's cars are gone, I am the only one with a working car. They have no electricity, running water, heat, nothing. We probably won't have it for a damn long time.

My one friend in Seaside has lost his house completely.

I'm mostly optimistic for the the mere fact that most of my stuff (including important stuff), animals, friends, and family are ok. I'm glad I have a place to stay and friends that checked up on me. But I'll admit I'm just... I have no real emotions, I'm running on empty, I'm at 0% fucks.

I don't even know what to do, I've been running around trying to help who I can, trying to be cheery for others, just... trying.

So yeah. There you go.