An ending...

First of all, I would like to say, I'm sorry.

I have said and done a lot of things that were not only self destructive, but rude, unkind, and childish.

I had grown arrogant, and that arrogance has come back to bite my tail off.

I have lost a lot that I care about because of it.

I have hurt a lot of friends and family due to it.

I have not only hurt, but lost the mate I loved, because of it.

I am nothing.

I am just a low life with the delusion of greatness.

And because of that, I have nothing.

For all that, I am sorry.

I want to find a means to end my arrogance.

Therefore, I am surrendering myself.

I need help.

I know an apology may not be enough for some of you.

I know I may not have back what I loved, cherished, and cared the most about.

I have caused too much damage.

So I must surrender those things.

I shouldn't try to restore what I had.

I need to let it go.

I single handedly destroyed my own life...

It's time I ended this cycle.

I'm sorry.