(copied and pasted from dA)

guess it's time i explain why i've not been uploading much, if any, recently drawn or up to date art..

i've done my best to stay upbeat but if anyone has my facebook they would know, that i'm actually going through a pretty tough time. i dont say any of this for the attention whore factor of it, literally just need to get some shite off my chest and just explain this to someone, something, that might happen to relate to my situation in any way so advice is more than welcome! :<

first off, you guys know im in a long distance relationship. i love my man, i love him to absolute bits and he loves me, but we struggle. the distance (4 hours between bournemouth and northampton) is tough, it would be really easy if both of us had more time and of course, more money. he has more of a social life than i do and when he's with his friends he speaks not a peep. communication withers because the only subjects we can find to talk about is how desperate we are for the future, or the many different struggles we face (but mostly mine as he's pretty well off in the subjects im having a hard time with). i worry for us.. i can say this all here because he doesnt have a deviantart - im not talking about him behind his back, least not in a negative way - i just dont want to lose what we have. we argue sometimes because i have trust issues and he, like i say, has a better social life and well, mingles a lot - despite this, i know he wouldnt do anything against the relationship, and if he drinks, hes always responsible.. is our relationship failing or should i cling to it? we have a bright future ahead but its such a long way away.. and to fund it is impossible at the moment because of my second issue..

work. i've been unemployed now since July when i'd finished college and gained my passes from what i was studying, and i have the diplomas to call my own. you'd think that i'd be all well and good and set up for the world of careers now, right? WRONG. stuck in this void of jobless hopelessness.. is where i have been for the past three nearing four months, and the pressure my mother is putting on me to find work has been driving me to tears every day for at least the past three weeks. i have no other income besides commissions and all that money gets taken off me by mother for things i supposedly owe her for, things i cant even remember half the time but i can't argue or else..else.... its a topic i cant discuss. i apply for literally EVERY SINGLE vacancy i see fitting to my hours and stuff, ive applied for so much, and aallll i get in return is no, no, no nono nonononono nono - we dont want you because youre underage, under qualified, NOT ENOUGH EXPERIENCE - now this is the one that really fucking riles me. i did work experience in a PDSA charity shop, and a voluntary job at a library, and i put these down as experience but it barely counts for anything because its not paid. well how the FUCK am i supposed to get paid experience if no one will hire me for a paid job because of my lack of paid experience???

im just very down in the dumps right now. pressure from mother, desperate for my relationship, seriously needing a job which is proving impossible lately.. anyone got any advice to paw on what exactly i can do to help myself get into work or get my relations back on track or just anything really ;________;