I finally dropped out nearly all religious/political groups, however still staying in some I probably won’t be active in anymore. Some will be more of causal chatting, some not so much. I rather take on art career and hobbies more in a healthier way.

While I used to be in many different kinds of political and religious groups from mid 2010's to the early 2020's on telegram throughout many years. I slowly dropped out of many over the years knowing myself always being more as an independent centrist individual growing up since I was a child. I have nothing against God, and Jesus. Individual spiritual faith I live with myself is not a problem. I never found religious places to be my calling growing up. They always have trouble establishing spiritual rules. Always leads to arguing on what means to be human beings and being believers. I'm fine with reading and understanding bible.

As for all the political groups, they always seem to be having trouble establishing stronger common base. Politics does feel like a series of trends, always changing rules, always changing topics, changing friendships. As for the political labels I used over the years, I always used them as a cover to push away annoying self centered people I dislike the most away from myself. They're never my true labels. For example, I used the label conservative to push away most so called "liberals" taking things too seriously. Taking fun out of many things. I no longer use those kind of labels as an attack shield anymore. Labels means nothing to me since I struggled understanding those as they're deeply shallow. I always believe in getting to know the people behind labels more since I was a kid.

I decided not do My personal furry friends list anymore. Circle of friends do change naturally over the years. I have zero issues with many of my good old friends over the decades growing up. It's natural as we all move on, we talk once in a while. Sometimes we talk a lot, sometimes lot less. Friends are still friends. True long time friends don't need friends list.

The whole christian furry telegram thing I was dealing with during from 2016 to the 2022. Well, things got complicated unfortunately.

I left Christian Furs in 2019 after I created it in 2016. I used to work as an admin for the Christian Fur even when it was taken over by Christian Furry Fellowship owned by Thomas and Jude. We always had rocky troubled friendships with each other during three growing pains years. Honestly, I was suffering existential crisis at the time that was admittedly needed serious self help that no knows how to help (I finally got that better self help in the early 2020’s). I do remember when Thomas wrote private letter to me telling how much he needed me to come back someday. Unfortunately I didn’t finish reading that letter correctly and seem was removed by him years later. I wish I know what the full letter was saying at the time. Changed his mind I guess.

When I finally came back to Christian Furs telegram/discord in mid 2022 after three years and half later, well. Unfortunately lot of things has been changed. Seems due to covid politics, and other messed up political parties they had to put up with while I was gone. CFF/CF now have completely zero interests on wanting me back on their admin staff anymore. They never lost any of the old admins after I left, and never gained any new ones. Making it deeply baffling. They never seem to celebrate on my comeback other than one admin who seem more excited with the idea of myself being admin again someday, while other admins seem not caring much.

It is possible there could have been weird rumors and myths about me being in groups may be against CFF/CF group in the worst ways possible I'm not well aware of. Doesn’t help that myself being former CF/CFF admin made it difficult for many christian furries to invite me to other private christian furry groups I’m most interested in. Yeah, being unintentionally typecasted and stereotyped does suck among many religious/political groups online. Even I do struggle with political groups as well also. Not only religious groups. There’s lot of political/spiritual tensions among many christian furry groups no matter what they are and what they believe in.

Yes I still have the Defenders of the Cross group I couldn’t care much as I used to anymore, it does have complicated problems and seem to suffer from sense of identity among many furries not always agreeing on what the nature of the christianity group should be all about. Certain furs in it speaks loudly about going “farther right” and being more hardcore traditionalist in a way seem unconvincing to myself. It doesn’t make any sense to go backwards into the past when we should be moving forward more. Labels are shallow, and meaningless.

At this point, I now realized more that my interest in religious/political seem have completely died off in the 2022 year here. It’s so strange how completely different the mid to late 2010’s were compared to now. Will I ever returned to furry christianity? Most likely not, it would have to take a miracle for myself to regain interest in them again. Right now everybody seem struggling badly as I am.