the last journal i wrote was so long ago! its time i wrote a new one :>

fursuit news: getting a partial fursuit in November of Onyx, the head coming from SparklepupStudios on FA, and the armsleeves and paws from HybridStudiosFursuits on FA :'D both parts paid off in full already, no losing this one, its happening!! <3 <3 the Onyx head starts building a little bit after Eurofurence i THINK, not sure, and i also think my armsleeves n paws will be done by Hybrid after theyve finished their next suit commission, i hope :'3

reason ive barely been uploading fuck all: in short, just had lots on my plate to deal with :< been going emotionally downhill for the last two - three weeks or so, feeling like im going crazy, overreacting to the slightest problem and having bad thoughts constantly riddle my mind, while having to job hunt fruitlessly and being harrassed by my parents constantly feeling like im having to impress them - in my high spirit times ill attempt to draw, or force myself to in my low times when a commission or trade NEEDS to be done and i put matter over mind. im not just saying it for attention so dont tell me to get better soon or anything in the comments, simply informing of the reason for my lack of art, dont want or need a bawwfest, i will sort it on my own.

close future: what keeps me going is from the 22nd to the 28th of august, ill be spending time irl with my love BubbleHusky, its so anticipated and itll be such a relief on my life! 22nd and 23rd he'll be staying at mine in Bournemouth, 24th is another London furmeet we'll be attending and the night of the 24th right through til the 27th, ill be staying at his house (houses?) across Northampton and Leighton Buzzard, then we spend the day in London on the 28th and i get picked up from Waterloo station in the evening and we depart our seperate ways again. itll be a great week <3

there, wont have to write anything for a while now.